Note this is from a personal perspective
My Friend The Colour Red
I see you without knowing
You are shown with no wanting need
My evoked body halted and time is stood still
Static and moveless body with a kaleidoscopic brain
My dizzying heights stupor the as my eyes grow wider
A peeking smile peeped across the face of the moment
What stickly feeling that evoked with the a swirling eternal colour
Paul Isaacs 2017
When we some people look at Asperger’s Syndrome and Autism it can be used interchangeably as the “same thing” but a “different presentation” between the two. If we look a little (or a lot) deeper you can actually find that the differences lie in brain hemisphere dominance and neglect and all that comes with it.
Autistic’
Reliant on the mapping of pattern/theme/feel known as ’Sensing’, with intermittent use
of interpretative processing at the level of the literal
Mono tracked processing with moderate to severe information processing delay.
Indirectly Confrontational, self in relation to self
The struggle here is the use of switching between “being” and “doing” states this means that the person is going from a “sensing” state to an interpretive state.
Asperger’s’
Interpretative processing at the level of the literal intermittent processing
beyong the literal to the ’significant’,
Generally Mono tracked processing with mild information processing delay
Those with Exposure Anxiety are indirectly-confrontational and self in relation to
self. Others are able to manage directly confrontational other-initiated social
interaction but generally lack a simultaneous sense of self and other
The struggle here is the opposite the use switching between “doing” and “being” this means that although the person gets a level of “significance” they may get “stuck” in a state of over thinking.
Exposure Anxiety is one of the three faces of “Autism”
Notes from a presentation by Donna Williams
At Flinders University, Friday Jan 16th 2004
Autism Doesn’t Run On”One” System
There is not one “system” in autism and that is part of the larger issue, by promoting tired stereotypes and linear 2D presentations of “collective autism” in which the person is assumed to think, act, react and behave in the same manner is rather passe and potentaily dangerous.
Looking deeper, being objective and opened minded to the varying presentations that both “Autism” and “Asperger” fruit salads supply as an adjective and a description can lead down to meaningful roads of empowerment.
Paul Isaacs 2017
Note This from a personal perspective
Conscious and Unconscious Processing
The problem even though I have progressed in many areas is switching between conscious and unconscious patterns of thinking, this in term has an impact on my ability to keep with incoming information in this case verbal, the ability to think consciously about what how to answer and also gauge the emotional significance of it.
“Stored Responses” & Unknown Knowing
I have come to realise that have rapporteur of “stored verbal responses” which come out at moments when I cannot process information in real-time these can look sometimes stilted, disinterested or “vacant” this is because I have level of social-emotional agnosia due to visual perceptual disorders and receptive/expressive language disorders as a result of aphasia. This jutting between a conscious response and conscious acknowledgment when most of my thought process’ that are “connected” in unconscious states means I now looking at ways of trying to marry my thoughts in a more connected manner this comes through typing in which the information I type hasn’t consciously gone in and unconsciously comes out as Donna puts comes as a surprise to the person in question as it may do to the people around them.
“Being” and “Sensing”
Donna Williams explains how the senses of a person with autism work, suggesting that they are ‘stuck’ at an early development stage common to everyone. She calls this the system of sensing, claiming that most people move on to the system of interpretation which enables them to make sense of the world. In doing so, as well as gaining the means of coping with the world, they lose various abilities which people with autism retain.
I can exist in state of being for hours on end that is were my process’s lie I observe without a conscious “knowing” or “interpretation” of what is going on around me as the however on an introspective level it is being so. I connect far more broadly and deeply through touch and texture. I am primarily a kinesthetic thinker/processor.
Being A Silent Observer
I have observed the world “silently” however I wasn’t really “silent” in the literal sense speech was not only delayed but late to be functionally meaningful, words swilled in my mind however grasping them for context and meaning was a struggle to say the least as I grew into later infanthood my verbal speech impinged on my jutting my conscious thought with “sounds” that did not represent the “inner world” I resided in. I am solitary and idiosyncratic and that has no doubt coloured my perceptions as much as the other part of my “autism fruit salad”.
Paul Isaacs 2017
The Eyes Are Deceptive?
Think about it a person who eye’s are organically “normal” and the ability “see” from an psychical perspective is there but the brain is not able to process visual information that is coherent and meaningful.
Reality vs. Context? The Hidden Link
As a child association was created through my body this could be through objects and or people. Touch gave me a reality and context that my eyes could not the contours of what touched beamed into my inner world as a way of saying “hello” to the outside from inside and secret bridge that was being made every time.
Movement, Mapping and Tactile Association
I was eager to be bare foot and “mapped” out my surroundings, movements, twists and turns around the “dead space” that enveloped in was both my enemy and my friend all at once. Touching, licking, sniffing, tapping and rubbing gave “life” to everything around me on an unconscious level of was working out world.
One could call this a “blindism” a state in which visual perception is not giving the associative signals and/or visual association of what an object “is” regardless of where you find it, what angle you see and so forth. This could lead problems with context and a distortion of memory.
Conclusion
As an adult I still rely more on my movements that what I am “seeing” this means that can still get lost in my surroundings but with my tinted lenses this is able to keep my conscious mind on track with meaning.
Paul Isaacs 2017
Note this is from a personal perspective
As a child my Mum thought I was “deaf and blind” and this was to do with both “blindisms” and “deafisms” this is how it presented itself through behaviours that I did show.
Context, Language and Perception
Having a level of visual agnosia, simultagnosia, prosopagnosia and semantic agnosia meant that association and context was and is at times is very difficult. As well as having a level of aphasia which meant the visual/language link took a long time to bridge and form.
Tinted lenses have helped bring a level of visual binding, coherence and an ability to keep up with visual information at a much quicker rate, recognise non-verbal cues and sort out my placement while moving from place to place.
Paul Isaacs 2017
This books is a must read for parents, professionals and people on the autism spectrum
Stella Waterhouse has been a professional in the field of autism since the 1970’s with a whole wealth information that taps into the very soul with resonance and deep thought, she clear has a passion for getting the knowledge out there by presenting different aspects in chapters with detailed and accessible writing.
From detailed historical elements of autism, professionals and advocates on the autism spectrum written with eager candor, emotion and objectivity to the multi-faceted nature of autism broken down into accessible pieces.
The running theme in book contextual to the information based on the specific chapter is to give a human element that touches the reader, makes them think, reflect, perspective take, feel emotion and more.(with first person account and historical accounts).Woven with relative and factual elements (such as the brain and nervous system) that broaden the palette and overall sphere of information giving rounded, objective and fluidity the runs from page to page.
This is a refreshing book that achieves the very title it was given looking beyond the stale and liner 2D nature of autism and opening up a broadening 3D perspective that will no doubt help generations to come. Highly recommended.
Paul Isaacs 2017
Racism & The British Empire
Classism, Bigotry, Racism, Right-Wing Politics and the British Empire was this really the UK in the “good old days”, when many a person was subjected to torment and ridicule based on the colour of their skin, when countries were invaded and taken over, when people were made slaves in their own countries, when the white man claimed to be “better” surely not this is something we must never forgot but much remember never to start up again.
Classism
Classism what a word for people who think they are somehow “better” in this sew saw nation of chronic and painful imbalance from people living with gold and jewels to the poor lonely soul on the street with all his or her belongings around him what state to be in 2017.
Helping Others
In a country that has more than enough housing, more than enough resources let’s give these people the change to live safely, let’s help our NHS and keep our benefit system these are the cornerstones of and equal social society.
Conclusion
We are all human beings but invisible barriers of ignorance rear their ugly heads it is shocking to the soul. I remember walking past a young lady not much older than me in Oxford asleep with all what she had near her and you think this is 2017 and this is still happening human beings are better than this we can do so much more for those people.
