I started getting symptoms of this in late infancy around 11 years old this was related to mitigating factors both to do with neurological processing such as aphasia, alexithymia and visual agnosia, environmental factors bullying and emotional triggering.
Psycho-Somatic Trauma Based Response to Negative Environment Experiences?
I would get sensations of my body “melting”, headaches, stomachaches, tingling in limbs, face and lips and by the time secondary school came and chronic bullying persisted in the first two weeks the pain would start again as stated above.
In particular, the pattern of shrinking was observed in two parts of the brain called the putamen and the caudate, a change oddly reminiscent of adults who have experienced early life stress, such as childhood maltreatment.
These sensations would cause me to have intestinal discomfort ranging from chronic constipation to nausea.
I would go to the school reception during lunch break sometimes on a almost daily basis saying either about a stomachache and/or headache I would sit in floods of tears wanting to go home this went on for approximately 18 months my nervous system was also being pushed as panic attacks usually followed before and/or after an episode of pain.
This meant that obsessive-compulsive disorder manifested in persistent hand-washing, counting, checking and reassurance around illness and disease began which last from the ages of 12 to 15.
Psychological Pain Presenting as Physical Pain?
Fast forward to this year and very recently I woke up in tremendous pain it started with an “itching” sensation in my lower arms and legs, then they felt like they were on fire, I got up and moved my legs persistently for 40 mins trying to “release” the sensation
Pain would be triggered by talking about illness in any context so for example people on the bus sat behind me and in the GP waiting room for example the described pain would migrate and move from my lower back, to my upper back from upper limbs to my lower limbs my body would begin to shake and adrenaline fired through my body, my stomach muscles would cramp up and would gurgle.
I went for a walk two nights ago and my feet went “numb” this caused great distress and panic as I walked home however bursting into tears was a great release for me.
Now most of pain has subsided but what does psycho-somatic pain represent? For me I feel it is unprocessed emotions, recent environmental distress and need for my body and brain to calm down.
Paul Isaacs 2019