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Autism “Culture”, The Word “NT” and Militancy

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If people are representing one has to think about is it for other people? Self-service? Advocacy? Empowerment? Information sharing? 

Militancy Is it “Normal”?

If militancy is perceived as the norm then who is that actuality helping? Assisting? Or otherwise is this the new phase that becomes relevant before it becomes redundant and passe?

The leader of their group replied in a tone lacking in warmth, ‘it would have been better without any NTs present‘. The others chimed in in support of him. Alienated, I left them to it.

Later when they were buddying up with more of the same separatist rhetoric and there was a tone to it that sat uncomfortably with me, a tone I’d heard before, in hierarchical non-autie children in playgrounds once upon a time (where I’d also known nice ones).

I had to let this group know that I simply don’t do bigotry… that my non-autie friends are not typical, mundane, boring or expendable and that I refuse to use any derogatory term that hints they are such, such as ‘NT‘.

As you can imagine, they were quite taken aback. I was meant to ‘understand’. I was meant to be ‘one of them’. But if ‘one of them’ meant I was meant to hang out in a group and dislike or disrespect another group, and share this as ‘belonging’ and ‘shared culture’ and ‘shared understanding’ then this wasn’t ‘me’.

Donna Williams

If this is the case what example is being set? By noting ones perceived superiority or “specialism” over others is still bigotry, separatism and creates more waves of the old “them and us” which doesn’t represent inclusion, empowerment, reality-sharing or otherwise. Which burns bridges more bridges than it claims to build.

The Word “NT” It Isn’t Helpful

I have come to believe that the word “NT” is not only unhelpful  and has been projected in such a way that would imply that other people who fit this “label” are “typical” therefore one could perceive that word as “boring”. I find this not only hypocritical but also a mystery because in truth there is no such thing as a “neurotypical”.

Autism “Culturism and Militancy”

The English word militant is both an adjective and a noun, and is usually used to mean vigorously active, combative and aggressive, especially in support of a cause

One cannot cherry pick what autism is and isn’t as a shared collective that is same for everybody in the truth autism in its presentation and reality is different for each person so in order to advocate and empower you have to be aware that the only reality you can share is your own and be humble and conscious enough to say that. To allow other people’s realities to relevant you cannot speak for all, to empower you cannot project “reality sameness”  because no human being is the same.

No One Should Be Defined As One “Label”

Can anybody be defined by one factor? Can anybody describe themselves in one word? I do not define myself by my “autism” it is certainly apart me but it isn’t the driving factor at all. When I was born I was born a human being and all that comes with it I live as a human being. There is much to be said about in the end being emotionally grounded, considerate and realistic.

Egalitarianism – The Way Forward

Egalitarianism (from French égal, meaning ‘equal’) – or equalitarianism[1][2] – is a trend of thought that favors equality for all people.[3]Egalitarian doctrines maintain that all humans are equal in fundamental worth or social status,

My wish is that in order for this to work people must consider all realities, perspectives, opinions and input in a constructive manner that is overall beneficial.

Paul Isaacs 2017

 

 


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Not Proud Nor Ashamed – Balanced About Being On The Autism Spectrum

Premature 1I Was Born A Human Being

I was born in 1986 and as far as I know I was born a human being just like the 7 billion other people on the this earth and of course I had my issues related to autism not being able to speak, not seeing the world as a coherent whole, faceblindness, receptive and expressive language disorders, oral apraxia, hemiplegia and list goes on. These thing are not “me” being face-blind isn’t me, being aphasic isn’t me and  being hemiplegic isn’t me either.

Autism A Describing Word

“Autism” is describing not defining for some people autism is a culture a place to be in and around a shared culture, however I do not believe that autism is a culture but has been created as such and maybe the question is who created culture? What rules apply? What rules don’t? What is “autistic”? What isn’t “autistic”?

I often wonder I feel however so more closer to being a human being then defining myself by one word which means different things to different people.

When I was formally diagnosed in 2010 with autism I was told by my parents that you are still “Paul” and this diagnosis only changes one thing that you aware of what difficulties you have had.

Autism Is Apart Of? Not The Defining Factor? 

I would agree with them and be understanding my autism and as clustering of differing conditions I was able to piece together my “autism” not as I saw fit but looking at deeply and introspectively enough to understand myself and hopefully empower others.

I know what autism is for me it is apart of not the defining factor I feel indifferent and balanced about what it means. I have done enough research and consultancy work to know that personality types, co-conditions, environmental factors, metabolic disorders, auto-immune disorderslearning types and communication styles,  will have an impact on the presentation of one’s “autism” so what does that mean?

  • Not one intervention works for all
  • Not all the issues are the same despite have a similar and/or same diagnosis
  • Not all people with autism have the same wants, needs, or desires
  • Not all people on the spectrum have the same communication profiles
  • Some people on the autism spectrum have auto-immune and metabolic issues which impact on functioning
  • Some people with autism have dietary disabilities which impact on learning and information processing 
  • Some people on the autism spectrum will have undiagnosed personality disorders and mental health co-conditions that keep being called “the autism” when they are not

I AM autistic but I HAVE immune deficiencies, I HAD cancer (apparently I can’t actually un-have it, its called remission) , I HAVE Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome… I also HAVE visual perceptual disorders, I HAVE language processing disorder, I HAVE mild learning disabilities.

I do not feel I AM these things, they are not ME, they walk alongside of me, often as parts of my autism, and whilst I AM autistic, just as I AM immune deficient, and I AM mildly learning disabled, Autism is not the sum total of who I am, it does not define my entire being or personhood, even if my personality traits are archetypally relatively ‘autistic’, I remain a person WITH autism… someone who HAS autism and, ok, IS autistic. The rest is war mongering militant separatist fascist crudola

– says Groucho
“PLEASE ACCEPT MY RESIGNATION. I DON’T WANT TO BELONG TO ANY CLUB THAT WILL ACCEPT PEOPLE LIKE ME AS A MEMBER”.

Polly Samuel 2013

Overall autism is not the defining factor of my me. My personhood that will always shine first not because I am ashamed of my autism nor because I am not proud of it either I remain balanced in what that means it gives me clarity and sanity. I am a human being first.

Paul Isaacs 2017


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You “Neurotypical” – When Reverse Prejudice Is Justified – Houston We Have A Problem!

Reboot Season 114WHAT “NT” MEANS

The word is well a term for people “off the autism spectrum” but when it is used in a such way to discriminate against a collective of people in which “other” is deemed as wrong, offensive, unaware, lacking, not knowing, stupid and ignorant it doesn’t matter how you package this one it is still wrong to be prejudice it is still wrong to project views that are bigoted and hiding behind a “good cause” doesn’t wash with me.

At the end of my lecture I asked ‘did you enjoy the talk’.

The leader of their group replied in a tone lacking in warmth, ‘it would have been better without any NTs present’. The others chimed in in support of him. Alienated, I left them to it.

Later when they were buddying up with more of the same separatist rhetoric and there was a tone to it that sat uncomfortably with me, a tone I’d heard before, in hierarchical non-autie children in playgrounds once upon a time (where I’d also known nice ones).

I had to let this group know that I simply don’t do bigotry… that my non-autie friends are not typical, mundane, boring or expendable and that I refuse to use any derogatory term that hints they are such, such as ‘NT’.

As you can imagine, they were quite taken aback. I was meant to ‘understand’. I was meant to be ‘one of them’. But if ‘one of them’ meant I was meant to hang out in a group and dislike or disrespect another group, and share this as ‘belonging’ and ‘shared culture’ and ‘shared understanding’ then this wasn’t ‘me’. Donna Williams (Polly Samuel)  

PREJUDICE IS PREJUDICE REGARDLESS OF THE WORDS USED

I will like to let people be aware that anybody who has used this term to the effect stated in this example – have you ever been called names? Names that hurt? Names that make you feel like shit? Names that question your own being? Names that make you feel small or inferior? If you have then surely you must understand that any form of separatism is wrong and that if “you neurotiypical” was used  in any other context such as race, gender or sexuality it would rightfully be deemed offensive.

“NT” & “AUTISM THEY ARE ADJECTIVES

“NT” is word a never use now because of what it has connotations with but people are people and acceptance doesn’t come from pigeon holing collective realities as “NT” or “autistic”  how about seeing people as human beings in the world we live in now we are forgetting that fundamental fact I see people. Seeing people is cool. 🙂

Paul Isaacs 2016


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“Autism” Isn’t A Culture – It Has Been Created As Such

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A CREATED CONSTRUCT

“Autism” is not a culture that is the premise of this post looking at the the diagram above you can see in simple terms how a “culture” works firstly it is a social construct it has been consciously created by other people, adapted, worded, it has its core values and within those vales it its has rituals, and within those rituals it has its “heroes” and within its heroes it has its symbols of recognition.

SAY YOUR PRAYERS AND TAKE YOUR VITAMINS 

Why is this a worry within the context and confines of autism because what if you don’t fit the culture? Follows rules? Pray to the right “gods”? Follow its values and customs and overall practices? Does that mean you have gone to the “dark side” that your value has been lessened because you don’t follow suit?

WHAT IF YOU DON’T FIT? ARE YOU REALLY THE “ENEMY”?

What if this construct  is the very problem within the autism “world” what if is the overall restriction for commenting you own reality that doesn’t fit was the status quo? Why should a open and honest dialogue be challenged because is doesn’t fit in with what is going on? That to me that is the ultimate reverse prejudice you cannot talk about this sort of isolation if you are practising and enforcing that types of isolation (even if it is in the name of a “good cause”).

REFLECTION

I am by no means the brightest but something is wrong here. I am all for advocacy, information sharing and above all honesty and truth but that is so  that all realities are to be taken into account. Even if they are tough to hear they are valid part of the learning process surely?

LIVE YOUR LIFE AS A PERSON 

The best examples of living life is by that very nature living it, ignore the politics, passe customs and overall dogma and just “be” there something fulfilling about just “being” and existing on a personal note my Father has helped by example to do this because life is short.

Paul Isaacs 2016


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I am not a “Label” I am A Human Being First

Baby Pictures High ChairI don’t know about you but when I was born I was born a person, lets ditch the rhetorics and start listening to other peoples realities and opinions (regardless of were they come from) and accept that disagreement will come but everybody as their own things to say. Lets not be restricted by a “box” or the what is “in crowd” I thank the people who have said their realities with conviction, honesty, rawness and carrying on their lives as best they can be the example and don’t just claim it. I am not “autism” if doesn’t “define” my being it rides along life it not a “definition of my life”. I acknowledge those on  and off the spectrum who are honest about the realities lets start listening and going from there keep going even if you don’t do not feel listened to, no popular do not worry at the very least (or most you have been true you and have not be influenced by the dominant wave.) 

Fanciful fable a baby in a cradle
New life and new wonders able
A hand from “in crowd” does beckon
I walk in feel more lonely I reckon

I’m not those things you said “we” all are
I am not a part of a redundant single star
You say things as fact, straight lines so subjective
When all I want to be is “me” more reflective

A puppet on a string I cut them off and look around
The strings a still attached with words and the same sound
I got back to the “real world” so eagerly with open arms
It may not be perfect but honesty has its ethereal charms

I am part of the humanity no label defines me I shall deface
Of flesh and blood and gleefully I move from place to place
The words are rubbed away sounding through the sky
I now what I am from life to death a smile and a sigh

Paul Isaacs 2016


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“Autism” Is Not A Single Thing – So Why Is It Still Being Presented As That?

20160730_121048DIFFERENT PRESENTATIONS 

No one “owns” Autism that includes me, you the person next door- I think it is important to know what “autism” and “asperger’s” in terms of profiles are the presentations that come with them.

POSSIBILITIES AND OPENNESS  

What are the components? (information processing, environment, mental health, personality, identity, learning types) By looking at these pieces you can understand what to do (or not to do) there are many different paths so by being open to possibilities.

GOING AGAINST THE GRAIN

I know my views aren’t popular for one because they go against the status quo of “neurodiversity” that is fine.

LOOKING BEYOND THE RHETORICS

Has anybody wondered what autism really is? Has anybody can beyond the passe rhetorics, memes or generalised views to know how to understand it? To empower  people with autism, their parents and professionals etc?

LOOKING DEEPER MEANS LOOKING AT WHAT IS THERE

Isn’t it time to know what makes up a person on the autism spectrum?  Dig deeper? I can tell you this is what my autism is made up of –

  • brain injury
  • hemiplegia
  • developmental delay
  • speech and language delay
  • language disorders
  • tic disorders
  • mutism
  • related anxiety disorders
  • personality disorders
  • learning difficulties etc.

This took six years of research and self-reflection to get to this point.

 I say to people reading this do not remember me for saying but remember the template that is being presented and what you can relate to and do not relate to

LETS THINK ABOUT IT 

For a so called “accepting autism community” I have seen plenty of internal upset, bullying, gas-lighting, trolling,  arguing, tears and upset to last a life time. Autism has created a “culture” around itself and personally I have seen nothing healthy come out of it. I came into this in 2010 with my parents we quickly got out of it my parents still don’t “get it” the militancy by people on and off the autism spectrum and I have recently been reminded of why I stay clear of it.

The people and parents who seen themselves as human beings first  (not defining by their “autism”), who are living their lives not consumed by labels and redundant definitions are the ones who are great examples.

This isn’t a game and when you are toying with people’s feelings directed at people who dare to above the parapet a speak from the heart and not tow the line Is this fair? I am all for healthy disagreement lets start listening.

Paul Isaacs 2016


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Over Generalisations In Autism

20160730_114554When people think of autism? One may need to consider this that is has never been a singular thing. In my previous blogs I have mentioned people like Donna Williams and Manuel Casanova who in their own unique style content has indicated through different observations and experiences that autism is not a generic, unmovable or flat presentation and that the components are different between person to person. That in turn means that different sources of help, aid and empowerment would be needed. It is very individualised.

Generalisations? Too Easy To Digest?

Generalisations are easy to digest I suppose they create a bubble in which the person has these sets of “traits” and one goes from there,  to point out the massive differentiation in autism it is surely more than healthy and beneficial? Also leading  finding why and how the person in question could be helped and empowered.

The Issues Around Autism “Culture”

“Autism” is not a culture that (to me) doesn’t make sense at all fitting into one individual into   culture means surely you are treading into many further degrees of separation which for me is very uncomfortable to consider or even acknowledge as something I would want to do or pursue as a goal.

To over invest in a label  means you are seeing your self as a single thing  and one definable thing and not seeing that like all human beings ALL people have different interacting personality types, environments, experiences, thoughts and feelings.

Something I strive for seeing the validity of being rather than over defining. This relates very much to over generalisations of “us” and “we” do this and “us” and “we” don’t do that if you step back think about this scenario and ethos is that (as the bigger picture) over time helpful?

Conclusion

The “autism world” has many hidden voices and experiences that people need to hear acknowledge and affirm reality for them – I once wrote in a previous blog that it is about listening to ALL people’s views whether they are parent, professional, person on spectrum or person off the spectrum.

Breaking down barriers of generalisations will lead to hopefully an fuller open dialogue in which we CAN learn and acknowledge from others with out man-made barriers which have been created in the “autism world.”

Paul Isaacs 2016