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I Am Glad I Got Bullied And Here’s Why

Me Holding Something 1

Note this is from a personal perspective 

I was speaking with two friends this evening and the subject of school-life came up it was an interesting exercise in subjectivity, objectivity and personal experiences shaping people’s lives but not defining them as we all move on.

My friend respectfully and realistically pointed out the fact that when students are at school (regardless of disability or otherwise) they are on their own unique journeys and difficulties can arise from all sorts of areas which have an impact of self-esteem, confidence and the ability to thrive on a functional level.

Enviroment vs. Social-Emotional Development

I was diagnosed late after my mainstream education had finished the best foundation for “social” I was given was through my tenure in education. It gave me the ability to cope with stressful situations, integrate and overall gave me the invaluable skills of living a “human life” rather than a “autistic life”. I was around people and my disability was not being flag waved to the point where I lost myself and was only defined by one single factor.

Is Bullying/Psychopathy Normal in Educational Settings?

I was surrounded by people who used interpretive speech. I still find this mode of speaking difficult and it is something I have aqquired a long the way in the context of school yes that was true. I cannot deny the verbal and at times physical abuse I encountered at school by other students on a daily basis as ‘normal‘ as their conscious psychothapy and narcissism was allowed run free regardless of the emotional damage that ensued.

Yes it is subjective and many of the students that bullied were emotionally insucure however being so doesn’t give you a free ticket to do it to others, however they did. I see this as a learning curve and lessons in life and I am thankful to learn from the shit and make sculptures out of it. 🙂

They may have changed which is great, found families, bared children etc I wish them well on their journeys.

Human Journeys

We (as people) are all on our journeys and bullying and victimisation was part of my experience however many others have been in the similar situations and I refuse to define my present situation by the past experiences. I am indifferent and objective about my past it happened and I am done with the “what could have beens” and “what ifs” I am thankful for my overall experience I would not have had it any other way.

I consider my reality no better or worse than any others, I don’t consider myself “special”, “better” and/or “superior” to anyone else. Affirmation has to be contextual and real not dished out like candy with hollow self-praise. There are too many people in the western world who just want their cake and to eat it all if only it was to shared out a bit more so other people’s realities could be shared and equally acknowledged with the sub-test of mine is better/worse than yours.

Tides of Glory 

I strayed and came about

Eager to scream and longing to shout

I have travelled a life which has been painted

I refuse to see my deepest memories as tainted

Come up and down and my thoughts fleeting around

I pick my body and ground my mind with the comfort of sound

A cloud full memories embraced and feetful of walking to be chased

A human being am I no better nor worse living a madless time at even pace

Paul Isaacs 2017

 

 

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Keep The Doors Open Without Judgement

People Are People

In times of great strife one must always remember that they are a person – a sense of autonomy is a matter of perspective as well as a matter who you have spent you connected time with before you have gone to the land of solitude – it brings great clarity to be at peace in solitude as does to of person’s who share the same balance as you do.

Do not see colour, race, gender, culture but see people for whom they are without judgement or hate to have that perception means that your eyes will always be meet with closed doors the more doors that closed the more your world becomes smaller the more the smaller your world becomes they less you see of it, the less see of it the more you will be consumed by your own judgement.

Like a person asking themselves the same question that they now the answer the perpetual loop that may never be broken – Live beyond the loop, beyond doors and beyond the narrow – live in the open let you mind be free.

Paul Isaacs 2016


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Carly Fleischmann – Advocate, Speaker & Author On The Autism Spectrum

CarlyMy name is Carly Fleischmann and as long as I can remember I’ve been diagnosed with autism.

I am not able to talk out of my mouth, however I have found another way to communicate by spelling on my computer. (and yes that is me typing on the computer by myself)

I used to think I was the only kid with autism who communicates by spelling but last year I met a group of kids that communicate the same way. In fact some are even faster at typing then I am.

Last year a story about my life was shown on ABC news, CNN and CTV here in Canada.

After my story was played I kept on getting lots of emails from moms, dads, kids and people from different countries asking me all sorts of questions about autism. I think people get a lot of their information from so-called experts but I think what happens is that experts can’t give an explanation to certain questions. How can you explain something you have not lived or if you don’t know what it’s like to have it? If a horse is sick, you don’t ask a fish what’s wrong with the horse. You go right to the horse’s mouth.

What an amazing story in this short introduction at Carly’s website you get a sense of what positive things she wants give to others on the autism spectrum, hope, empowerment, understanding, questioning things that should be questioned and ultimately to never assume with someone on the autism spectrum and always see the person. She written a book with her Father “Carly’s Voice” which shows us all the power of all forms of communication. 🙂 Amazing. 🙂

CARLY’S WEBSITE

CARLY’S BOOK

CARLY RECOMMENDS

Carly’s Defining Moment – Video

Paul Isaacs Adult with Autism 2014


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Diversity in Autism Learning Profiles – Being a Non-Visual Learner – PECS – Why That Wouldn’t Work For Me (But Can Work For Others) on the Autism Spectrum

Me at 6 Months Old With My Teddy

Me at 6 Months Old With My Teddy

OVERVIEW

Note – This is personal to my profile all profile are different on the Autism spectrum

Looking back at my learning profile at school, I lived in a world of visual fragmentation and word blindness, seeing things in pieces not wholes –  form agnosia, prosopagnosia, simultagnosia, semantic agnosia & visual – verbal agnosias this also meant I didn’t have visual memory. Early signs of this was where in my photo to the left appearing cross-eyed, lack of spacial awareness from an early age, not understanding visual contexts (running into the sea with clothes on), drawing by route and touching my enviroment.

VISUAL MEMORY IMPAIRMENT OVERVIEW

DORSAL STREAM

Damage to the posterior parietal cortex causes a number of spatial disorders including:

  • Simultanagnosia: where the patient can only describe single objects without the ability to perceive it as a component of a set of details or objects in a context (as in a scenario, e.g. the forest for the trees).
  • Optic ataxia: where the patient can’t use visuospatial information to guide arm movements.
  • Hemispatial neglect: where the patient is unaware of the contralesional half of space (that is, they are unaware of things in their left field of view and focus only on objects in the right field of view; or appear unaware of things in one field of view when they perceive them in the other). For example, a person with this disorder may draw a clock, and then label it from 12, 1, 2, …, 6, but then stop and consider their drawing complete.
  • Akinetopsia: inability to perceive motion.
  • Apraxia: inability to produce discretionary or volitional movement in the absence of muscular disorders.

DORSAL STREAM DYSFUNCTION PDF

PECS wouldn’t have helped me piece things to together in context and I certainly wouldn’t of seen it as a functional tool I would seen the card in bits and pieces and being mono-tracked I would have had three pieces of communication to deal with

  1. The cardholders voice  – Would have been jumbled
  2. Picture – Would have been fragmented and therefore no meaning nor context would have been made
  3. Word/s – Jumbled and distorted due to dyslexia and visual-verbal agnosia

CATERING FOR ALL PROFILES – A NON-VISUAL LEARNER

I learnt best by touch – touch meant connecting, communicating and integrating, touch was more meaningful than the jumbling of too many words (written or expressed). This is how it worked for me. 🙂

  1. Sensory Exploring – touching, licking, sniffing, rubbing, mouthing
  2. Sound Exploring – checking the phonics and depth of sound, through touch and echolalia
  3. Environmental Connecting – “Mapping out surroundings” by using a kinesthetic system

 

Remember all learning profiles are a diverse as the communication profiles and sometimes they both inter-relate and connect.

Paul Isaacs Adult with Autism 2014