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A Lesson in Time – Mental Health Assessment Pre-Diagnosis

Paul 7 Years Old

Family Assessment

Tuesday 11th February 1997

Presenting Problems

Mr. Isaacs was unable to attend today as he is a shift worker and since accordingly this date he has been changed to day work. My initial impression of Paul was of a much younger lad (he is eleven in May) physically and psychologically.

Paul was eager to explain his concerns to me and at times was very insistent on not letting his mother give a more comprehensible explanation of the situations that had occurred.

Paul’s major sense of unhappiness and the reason for his referral is that he feels he is verbally bullied at school. he gave examples of being taunted primarily about 1.) The way walks. 2.) Shuffling his feet. 3.) He wears glasses – and he has been called “four eyes”. However, he feels that the teaching staff are against him . In year 4 he had an unhappy relationship with his form teacher. It does seem one particular occasion he was humiliated – but to the infants so they could show him how to behave.

Mrs Isaacs also incited another incident which seemed to have upset her more than Paul. It became apparent that when Paul was explaining his situation at school his explanations tented to be repetitions of his parents points of view.

Paul after became muddled and it seemed there gaps in connecting and associating. It was also significant that when Paul referred to “she!”- his pronunciation was really that of “he” – I did check several times, but it appears that both Paul and his mother were unaware of this – which was marked. (receptive hearing problem? speech difficulties?).

Mrs Isaacs pointed out that Paul always had difficulties “concentrating” and settling down to work – she remembers this as steaming as far back as three year of age – When he attended play-group. she also recalls at this age and ever since that has had problems with “interacting with others” (her words). Paul has not many friends and it was brought to Mrs Isaacs’ attention by the teaching staff that he was a “solitary figure” in the playground. His mother also pointed out that they lived close of approx ten houses and that there were other children of Paul’s age, but he tended to say in.

Her explanation for this was that he felt safe and secure behind closed doors. Paul did mention some of his friends, but found it hard to articulate what he felt about his friendships with them. He did admit to hitting out at people at times is was significant that he mentioned his father hit him when he was angry. Mrs Isaacs denied this. Paul’s response was “I suppose Mum must embarrassed that I said that.”

Paul’s self-perception is that his “fairly sensible” , however he admits to being influenced by others into “being silly”, but he feels other children are being “sillier” the than him – “going over the top”. He feels he doesn’t go over “the top”. Paul has recently had to go back to the very basics in Maths with one other pupil. Mrs Isaacs conveyed concern and irritation that the teaching staff had not picked up on Paul’s severe difficulties with Maths; especially in view of him starting upper school at Lord Williams East in the new academic year (Sept 1997). Paul’s reading age is estimated as that of a nine year old. it appears the only positive subject that could of was Paul’ art. Mrs Isaacs believes and feels the teaching staff convey negative messages surround Paul’s overall performance. Mrs Isaacs explained that Paul gets very “worked up” over homework assignments, Paul also stated that he cries very easily hence his vulnerability at school in being bullied. It appears Paul suffers from anticipatory anxiety and expressed his fear of commencing upper school as he has heard he will get “beaten up”. Is is of significance that Mrs Isaacs was unhappy at ‘Long Crendon Primary School’ and suffered “bullying” at ‘Lord Williams’ East’. Mr Isaacs is also being scapegoated at work – he is being ‘verbally bullied’ (Mrs Isaacs’ words) and harassed and feels under a lot of pressure.

Family History

When referring to the history of the pregnancy Mrs Isaacs requested to speak separately – she explained she told no one of the pregnancy – only her partner (whom she is married to). She had been rushed into the JR as Paul “was distressed” – he was a month premature and was in SBCU post birth. She was unable to breast -feed Paul remarking they had said “she was too big”. Transition to weening had been unproblematic. Had been slow in walking – 18 months? He was sleepy baby and had to be woken up for feeds – He had been a “good baby”. However Mrs Isaacs had fond toddlerhood difficult – his “boisterousness”. Paul has had three operations 1.) Circumcision at 2 years 2.) Grommets 3.) Adenoidectomy at 4 years – at the JR and Radcliffe. Tonsillitis – query – Tonsillectomy otherwise healthy. Mother with Paul for all operations – no significant complications

Paul would like help with “the teasing” – he said it although it had been easier recently he wants to be able to cope with it better if it worsens again. He also says he is very sensitive and works himself into a state easily. There is also much anticipatory anxiety regarding this move to Lord Williams’ East in the Autumn. In ascertaining his mood he expresses no helplessness or hopeless feeling and denies suicidal ideation or such thoughts. He does covey and sense of confusion and bewilderment over the treating of staff’s “rude words” (his words) about his self-presentation. (percistanty anxiety).

  1. Assessment from Psychologist (educational?) to check ot cognitive abilities and overall school performance.

  2. Social skills group at “The Park Hospital for Children”. (mother drives) for interaction with class.

  3. Possible Family Therapy – concerns regarding Paul;s parents and levels of depression. Re-enactment of mother’s unhappy school experience and father’s “bullying” at his workplace, especially regarding “authority figures”

Cognitive Abilities , Cognitive Impairment & “Mental Retardation”

“It became noticeable he had very slow speech”

There was a massive transition in 1993/1994 prior to this interaction before this I was echolalic, meaning deaf to large degree and unable to speak in a fluid manner. Having visual agnosias, oral apraxia and challenges around receptive language meant that getting an interpretive and expressive framework was slow, stilted and lengthy. I went through bouts of selective mutism hating my “connected” voice which then in turn triggered exposure anxiety.

there appeared to be a gap in connecting and association.

Still have complex visual and verbal blockages meant that my “cognitive abilities” were hidden and therefore not “seen” I have no doubt that the lady in question had her own frame of reference on how I was processing the information so thinking I was “retarded” was just the tip of the processing iceberg.

‘Bursting into tears quickly’ – Alexithymia, Body Agnosias and Trauma

There are many overlapping reasons why this was happening at this point – the reason in which I was at this assessment was the persistent verbal bullying from a senior member of staff at the primary school I attended. Having body agnosias meant that I couldn’t gauge or manage my own emotional states this would be related to alexithymia the inability to “know” your own states of emotion, the ability to “internalise” them and mentalise them on a “conscious” level however manner years later when I wrote my first book I came to realise that on a “unconscious” all my experiences were unlocked through typing.

(receptive hearing problem? speech difficulties?)

I was traumed from an early age by expressive language (but at times would be intermittently intrigued) due to a language processing disorder (aphasia), I was triggered by exposure anxiety, dissociated easily and would struggle to get incoming information with “meaning” living in the world of the system of “sensing” before awareness mind and the ability to make interpretive connections.

Battling Books & Formulas & Artism

He has severe difficulties in maths.

His reading age has been estimated at an average age of nine.

Not being able to mentalise in a visual – verbal way meant that I had challenges around comprehension and getting meaning from books, written words and maths. (dyslexia, dyscalculia and visual-verbal agnosias) found the process of writing very difficult the way in which I held the pencil, the ability to concentrate on letter and sentence formation. The same goes for maths.

My solace for extraction and distraction was art which was were my mind was freed and felt “at home” I started from a very young around 5 smearing paint on to a piece of paper and I was hooked from that point on then transitioning to drawing by route during this period of my development.

Prematurity & Height

“There is some evidence that babies who were born premature tend to be shorter in childhood, but they usually catch up with those born at term in late adolescence. But our study shows that women who were born very preterm fail to reach the stature you’d expect based on their parents’ and siblings’ heights.”12 Dec 2016

She noted that developmentally and that I seemed “younger” than my age from a psychological and psychical perspective there is a link between having a short stature and prematurity currently I am only about 5’8′ I do not think I will be growing vertically anytime soon.

Did I Have An Attachment Disorder?

I can assure you I was lucky that my parents gave me love, support and grounding even though they didn’t know that I was on the autism spectrum. Did they both have difficult childhoods and upbrings? Yes they did for many different reasons.

My Father had parents his whom were his primary caregivers who didn’t not show him love, affection, boundaries or a sense of meaningful inclusion both of the parents were cold and aloof and didn’t seem to understand (be it wanting or otherwise) the serious practicalities of what parenthood meant for a child’s development and emotional wellbeing.

My Mother was seen as a disappointment to her Mother who was constantly comparing my Mum to other people explaining that she needed to be more like other people as opposed to building up her own sense of self and identity, self-worth and autonomy.

The truth is I am and try to be a objective judge of character when it’s presented to me and the answer is no I did not have a attachment disorder and my parents were not to blame for anything.

My Mother fits the solitary, serious and self-sacrificing personality types she is giving, emotionally connective and generous.

My Dad fits the conscientious, mercurial and adventurous personality types he is assertive, pragmatic and forthright.

I love and value them as human beings because despite their own “shit” they didn’t fling it consciously or otherwise on to me.

Paul Isaacs 2019


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The Root/Trajectory Of Autism Is A Diverse “Fruit Salad”

Brain Lobe 2Right hemisphere Functions

  • numerical computation (exact calculation, numerical comparison, estimation)
  • language: intonation/accentuation, prosody, pragmatic, contextual

OVERVIEW 

If some one has an agnosia (perceptual loss) on this side of the brain this is called Social-Emotional Agnosia (not reading “facial expressions”, tone of and being literal) this tends to fit the profile with people with Asperger’s Syndrome. One is using the the left side of the brain (logic, literal thinking to get meaning).

So the Brain is Using The Left Hemisphere To Decode Information Because Of The Neglect.

RIGHT HEMISPHERE SYNDROME

Left hemisphere Functions

  • numerical computation (exact calculation, numerical comparison, estimation)
  • left hemisphere only: direct fact retrieval
  • language: grammar/vocabulary, literal

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If someone has a agnosia (perceptual loss) on this side they may have an aphasia (language processing disorder) and process before typical interpretation (even literal) information so they loss the words (they become sounds), and they may have visual agnosias (face blindness, meaning blindness, object blindness) so they will not pick up body language this way and may rely on overt gesture and overt tone to get  “meaning” (using the right side of the brain to compensate for the left). less literal and less logical in their processing this could be someone with Autism.

So The Brain Is Using The Right Hemisphere To Decode Information Because Of The Neglect.

LEFT HEMISPHERE SYNDROME

VISUAL AGNOSIAS

EARLY BRAIN INJURY ARTICLE 

This could apply to people on the spectrum who have had and recognise brain injury as apart of their autism profile and how they have developed in many areas of functioning. From a personal perspective this article is very informative.

As a person who has left hemisphere brain injury (as apart of my autism), language processing disorder (aphasia) and visual agnosia this is I feel a step in the right direction.

Other Trajectories that Affect Development 

Paul… for some its brain injury… for some its immune dysfunction… for some its a neuronal migration disorder… for some its being prem… for some its hypo-connectivity… for some its hyper-connectivity.”

Brain Injury

Immune Dysfunction Syndrome

Neuronal Migration Disorder

Premature Syndrome 

Hypo connectivity Syndrome 

Hyper connectivity Syndrome

Fetal Alcohol Syndrome

Prenatal Smoking

Placental Abruption (Lack of Oxygen)

Vacuum-Assisted Delivery 

Toxins

Genetics 

and many more

Donna Williams

Autism & It’s Trajectories Are Not “One Thing” They Are A “Fruit Salad” Unique In Origin 

Other diverse factors exist in how a person is on the autism spectrum and my own are as diverse and person-centered as another person’s trajectory. It has it’s own “Fruit Salad”.

Donna points out it isn’t just one defining factor but many many different ones and it’s important to not only acknowledge this but to also understand it is a reality for someone too and factors they bring with them. There could be a whole mixture of different factors that contribute to someone being on the autism spectrum.

In other words not only is “autism” not one thing but also the trajectory defining origins/factors aren’t one thing thing either.

DIFFERENCES BETWEEN AUTISM & ASPERGER’S SYNDROME – DONNA WILLIAMS’ BLOG

WHAT IS AUTISM? – DONNA WILLIAMS’ BLOG

Paul Isaacs 2014


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Living In Half A World – Hemispatial Neglect In The Context Of Autism

Note this is from a personal perspective of having this clustering syndrome 

It was interesting looking at a video I was presenting at an Tony AttwoodAutism Oxford UK earlier this year being “blind” to my right side is certainly an odd/interesting life. 🙂

Definition of Hemispatial Neglect 

Hemispatial neglect, also called hemiagnosia, hemineglect, unilateral neglect, spatial neglect, contralateral neglect,unilateral visual inattentionhemi-inattention, neglect syndrome or contralateral hemispatialagnosia is a neuropsychological condition in which, after damage to one hemisphere of the brain is sustained, a deficit in attention to and awareness of one side of space is observed. It is defined by the inability of a person to process and perceive stimuli on one side of the body or environment that is not due to a lack of sensation. Hemispatial neglect is very commonly contralateral to the damaged hemisphere, but instances of ipsilesional neglect (on the same side as the lesion) have been reported.

Physical Observations

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The factors that can be picked up is when I speak the right side of my mouth doesn’t rise and fall (giving it a crooked appearance) this also can happen when I smile as well as the eyebrow on the right side not rising and muscles looking lax and frozen.

If look at the picture to your left (left and right are reversed) you can see the difference in brain activity.

Note – the mouth and eyebrow on the side I am “connected with”

Left Hemisphere Brain Injury

Part of my Autism Fruit Salad is brain injury this was no doubt in the womb and compacted by complications such as fetal distress, silent stroke, cerebral hypoxia and placental abruption this would also explain the fact that I am blind to the the right side of my body this also includes

What has helped?

  • Cycling and Riding Bicycles
  • Walking on Different Terrains
  • Swimming
  • Drawing & Creative Activities
  • Hand Writing
  • Tinted Lenses
  • Positive Attitude

Conclusion

Integration of the the neglected hemisphere could certainly be a start and could help not only with learning and experiencing new skills but also assist in good mental health also. (of course strategies will be very much person-centred).

Paul Isaacs 2014


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Strategies For The “Pieces” of My Autism Using Donna Williams’ Fruit Salad Analogy

Fruit Salad Analogy Donna Williams

Note – That this is from a personal perspective of my profile and what makes up “my autism”

Here are all the pieces of my Autism broken down into bits and chucks with a personal perspective on each bit and personal strategies that have helped me over the years.

Expressive Agnosias

Alexithymia

This is an issue with processing one’s own emotions it affects about 85 percent of people on the autism spectrum and is experienced on different levels depending on how one is affected and what moods create the issue.

Personal Perspective

For me emotions come outside in and not inside out they are an invasion a wave of energy that is uncontrollable, invisible and scary – negative emotions take longer to process and configure as well – for example it took my 3 whole years to process (emotionally) that I was being bullied at work everybody else knew I didn’t. I a wave of energy hit me that night as I cried uncontrollably with the realisation of what happened again it took 3 years. As a teenager I would tense my face up and self-harm in the form of knuckling my cheeks, slapping my legs and hitting my arms in confusion and disconnect.

Strategies

  • Paul what are the origins of your feelings (helping me find a starting point)
  • Paul are these feelings environmental (situational) or is this not
  • Use objects of reference and gestural language and representation to explain

Receptive/Expressive Language & Movement Issues (Speech & Communication)

Aphasia

There are many different forms of aphasia which affect both expressive and receptive communication

Personal Perspective 

Sounds and language intermingled and became indisputable I would react with glee and find these “sounds” that people made and tilt my head in wonderment, perplexed and even intrigued by these “sounds” this was at pre-school – event now receptive language is difficult for me (words process back into sounds meaning deafness)

Strategies

  • Clipped telegraphic language
  • Tone and overt melody
  • Gestural language – creating movements which connect with the words like a play
  • Allowing processing time

Speech Delay

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Personal Perspective

Swirling sounds and words in my head – I had problems with expressive speech for about the first five years I had no functional language in head for many years – I would have moments of clarity, moments of language which slowly progressed but no one saw because of my external behaviours I had limited words within my head which progressed – no one should be written off if they don’t have expressive speech, I heard things in the playground and slowly processed them and because of how I appeared it looked like I didn’t hear/understand.

Strategies 

  • Word and sound play
  • Movement
  • Not presumed incompetence

Language Delay 

Personal Perspective

At around the ages of 7/8 years old I gained functional expressive speech of (from a developmental perspective a 3 year old) – with the receptive and expressive language disconnect I had issues with understanding to express and equally expressing to understand. This lead to confusion with not only myself but others around me Speech Apraxia (Verbal Dyspraxia) also compacted the issue (coordination of  the mouth and tongue and jaw muscles to extract speech) this was prevalent until late infancy in my CAMHS  (Child & Adolescent Mental Health Services) notes speech production was at times heard to understand.

Strategies 

  • Clipped Telegraphic Language
  • Gestural language (both from myself and speaker)
  • Word, Sentence & Language play (use of syntax, meaning, word production, sentence connections)
  • Contextualisation of words

Selective Mutism – (once functional speech was acquired)

During late infancy and early teenage-hood I had bouts of mutism (having the ability to speak but because of anxiety would not) this included – people who I sensed were non genuine, too much expressive language from speaker (meaning deafness) so unable to give an answer that was contextually correct.

Strategies

  • Understanding the origins of the mutism (social anxiety, exposure anxiety, OCD obsessive compulsive disorder, language processing disorder, social phobia etc)
  • Boosting self-confidence – such as in my cases drawings and exercise
  • Understanding the receptive and expressive communication profile

Tic Disorder  & Globus Pharyngis – 8 Years old – was called a “Nervous Throat”

Personal Perspective

In mid to late infancy I had what was termed a nervous throat this was to do with the “feeling” or an obstruction in my throat causing me to in a tic-like fashion make a loud “Hum!” and “ahem!” sound.

Strategies

  • What are the places of anxiety in one’s life that has caused this
  • Making me aware of when I was doing this sound

Echophenomena

Personal Perspective

Sounds, patterns, themes, feeling, movement and experiencing this world, people and place. I don’t use elaborate constructions but do and sense in order to perceive, understand an process I don’t live in a world of literalism nor logic as basis of “concrete” understanding – even now that form of and basis of understanding things, people, environments etc.

Strategies

  • Movies (focusing on the sounds, movements and expressions)
  • Music (tone, melody and rhyming)
  • Observing surroundings and contextualisation

Visual Agnosias

 Personal Experience 

I see faces (face blindness), bodies and visual environment as fragmented (object blindness) which also meant I could not see body language or facial expression , flat tursh and without depth or meaning (meaning blindness) not understanding self and other of what is around me for example it took me until 16 years old to understand that when I looked in the mirror firstly I was looking at myself (although I still get a level of disconnect) and that what “seems to be in front of me” is in reality behind me. My visual perceptual systems have layered effect on what I see and interpret.

Strategies 

  • Sculpting objects in my space this would including licking, sniffing, mouthing as a way to externalise the object making it real for me this help me map out my space
  • Preference for having no shoes of socks on in my youth and around the house (patterning movements)
  • Sculpting faces remembering and connecting with someone by touching their face (I have only done that to 7 people in my lifetime to date)
  • Having objects on display not “hidden” because I don’t have visual memory so placement is important
  • Recognising people by sensing their patterns of movement and their voice
  • Tinted lenses help with sensory integration, moving in visual space, depth perception, body language, posture and confidence

Auditory Agnosias/Aphasia

Personal Perspective

Hearing sounds environmental with no on origin (auditory agnosias) hearing words as “sounds” (verbal auditory agnosia/receptive aphasia) missing tone, sarcasm, idioms not because of literalism but because of how much language I can process before I “hear” nothing.

Strategies 

  • Telegraphic language and clipped words for the origins of environmental sounds (auditory agnosias)
  • Telegraphic and gestural language – being overt, pantomime like in expression, tone and melody
  • Music, rhythmic beats and movement help my brain “work”

Body Disconnection

Personal Perspective

Not being connected to my body means that pain is not recognised as well as a sense of my own body its inter-connectivity and its connection (as a whole form) around the world around me, I appeared odd to bouts of trauma having a tooth almost knocked out (an elbow to the mouth) was me with indifference to pain but shock and sadness at the blood (this element coming out of me) and a dislocated arm was met with anger and confusion because of the lack of movement not the pain. During times of mental illness I self-harmed both my arms not “knowing when to stop”  and as a child I didn’t have knowledge of my fingers (my limbs also rolled into one another as if they didn’t exist).

Strategies

  • Pressure points around my body – bracelets on wrists, tight shoes, belt, jacket and/or shirt and long hair tied back (adding pressure getting a sense of my head)
  • As a young child smearing paint, moulding play dough and sifting sand (to get a sense of my “foreign fingers”)
  • Messy play as a child
  • Dental appointments (for me this is form of sensory integration and very relaxing) 🙂

Dissociative Disorders – Recognised  in 2012/Revised 2014

Personal Perspective

In late infancy I started to dissociate as coping mechanism during these years and for many after taking myself away from both the situation and environment, persistent bullying during my educational and work years didn’t help the issue and I “created” personas (with strong reactionary personality profiles) to deal with this. I developed PTSD some years ago reliving an abusive incident that happened in my mid teenager years.

Strategies 

  • Understanding that dissociation is on a spectrum from daydreaming to higher frequencies and detachment of you the person and/or the environment you are in.
  • Therapy that includes mapping memory, incidents, personas and coping mechanisms
  • Understanding trigger responses
  • Personal origins of dissociation

Mental Health

Personal Perspective 

I started to develop OCD in my early teenager years this was persistent and would resulted in hand washing, placement moving and plug and switch checking, door-slamming and checking. Exposure anxiety was to do with an involuntary response to direct exposure interaction this would lead me to run away literally (or in my mind). Like many people on the spectrum I advocate the personhood first in the late 2000s I developed two distinct personality disorders (extreme versions of my “normalised” personality traits.

Strategies

  • Origins of OCD – in my case this was fear of the house being burned down, burglary,  germs and confirmation, and invasive illness that would lead to pain and/or death
  • Indirect confrontation for exposure anxiety talking away from me, talking about me but allowing me to hear it and integrate it without being in the mix
  • Knowing personality its traits and extremes (disordered versions of “normalised” versions/traits)

Learning Difficulties

Personal Perspective

Words swilling in my head I found them hard to process and strand together as words formed in my head over time I found it hard to translate them onto the page, the same with numbers which don’t swill in my head I found it hard to grasp numbers their meaning and their interpretation and their overall function.

Strategies

  • Clipped sentences – one stage at a time
  • Pens with extra grip (fine motor movements)
  • Alternate ways of writing
  • Function and context of what number “mean”

Auto-Immune

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Personal Perspective

Many foods would make me fill ill both in body and mind causing me to have brain fog, lack concentration and further hinder my processing and integration of information from my surroundings, language and sounds.

Strategies

  • Understand foods, their content and what ingredients they have in them
  • Piecing  together what foods are making you ill, unwell and have brain fog
  • Piecing together what foods you can have that don’t make you ill

Other

Personal Perspective

This can be related to anxiety it is the slow stripping of enamel making them look “smooth” and/or “chipped” in appearance I have this with many teeth on one side of mouth

Strategies

  • For me regular checks at the dentist and a gum guard at night has helped with issue
Dr Casanova

Dr Casanova

Genetics – Developmental Agnosias & Minicolumns

Some agnosias, sensory hypersensitivity, sensory integration disorders and many other conditions and syndrome can be passed down and can be seen as congenital in nature how the brain has grown with genetic encoding  – Neurologist  Dr Manuel Casanova calls this Minicolumns please take a look at this blog about his research and findings

AUTISM & MINICOLUMNS

PERSONAL WEBSITE

PERSONAL BLOG SITE

Donna Williams 2011

Donna Williams

Donna Williams – Autism as a “Fruit Salad”

Donna is quite correct in letting the world know that autism is a “clustering” of different conditions (both neurological and metabolic systems), syndromes, personhood and personality extremes, environment, mental health and learning styles. No one person with autism is the same and that means there is a high level of diversity to their which is good.

WHAT IS AUTISM? BLOG

AUTISM & ASPERGERS “FRUIT SALADS”

PERSONAL WEBSITE

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Me Premature

Brain Injury Relates To My Autism Profile

Having brain injury at both has also had an impact on my autism presentation I was born premature and through placental abruption, cerebral hypoxia, silent stroke and damage the left hemisphere of the brain (which is related to aphasia, language processing, visual agnosias, simultagnosia, apraxias and  visual spatial functioning).

HYPOXIA & BRAIN INJURY 

I would say that these added factors has made my autism “Fruit Salad” more complex in nature and presentation – there are clearly other members of my are on the on the autism spectrum who have been diagnosed but their profiles are very different from mine in terms of presentation the mechanics.

 Having an Autie Profile

 Having an Autie profile in terms of presentation means I live in world (from a processing perspective) that is less literal, less logical and I use my sensory systems to work out the world I live in and I think it is important to know the mechanical differences between Autism and Asperger’s Syndrome and the people in between profiles “Aspinauts”. Every profile is unique in presentation so interventions, learning and communications will have to be person centred.

Personhood First? Why?

For all what is said and done I want to be known for my personhood first my autism comes along with me wherever I go, however it doesn’t define my being, it doesn’t make me what I am in totality (it affects how I perceive and processing the world). I love art, poetry, music, movies, fashion, drawing, being silly, bad jokes, dogs and want to know for those things first.

I hope this helps others. 🙂

Paul Isaacs 2014


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Placental Abruption – Part of My Autism Profile

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Placental Abruption 

This a personal account of these issues, my development and my autism profile.

My mother and I where both in distress during her pregnancy – I was born premature and was born via cesarean section  and my Mother suffered heavy bleeding as a result of what is called placental abruption.

“Placental abruption happens when there is bleeding behind the placenta, between the placenta and the wall of the uterus (womb). This may be just a small amount of bleeding. But if you have a large amount of bleeding, the placenta may partially or completely separate from the lining of your uterus before your baby is born.”

Left Hemisphere Brain Injury & Oxygen Deprivation (Hypoxia) 

“25% of babies who experience hypoxic/anoxic injuries at the time of labor will have permanent neurological problems.”

© 2014 Birth Injury Justice.org by Becker Law Firm, L.P.A. All rights reserved.

Aspects Of My Birth 

My Autism profile consists of many speech, language, perceptual and developmental delays  which includes

  • Speech Delay (non-verbal 5 year approx with speech regression)
  • Motor Coordination Delays (crawled with one arm and didn’t start walking until 18 months old)
  • Language Delay (gained functional speech between the ages 7/8 years is that of a 3 year old developmentally)
  • Learning Difficulties (dyslexia, dyscalculia, dysgraphia)
  • “Mild” Learning Disability
  • Visual Agnosias (simultagnosia, semantic agnosia, prosopagnosia, visual-verbal agnosia)
  • Auditory Agnosias (pure auditory agnosia, verbal auditory agnosia, receptive and expressive aphasia)
  • Body Agnosias (finger agnosia and visual-spatial dysgnosia)
  • Hemispatial Neglect (related to brain injury, left-handedness, left-right confusion related to Gerstmann Syndrome)

Genetics

They also come into play because there are such things as genetic based agnosias, processing issues and learning difficulties which can be passed down from generations to generation (although the fashion in which this is done is highly variable) the cross over with other profiles seems to be there and commonalities are present in some of the conditions such as.

This However Doesn’t Affect My Character or Personhood

Every person is on a journey of self discovery and revelation this doesn’t make me feel sad nor isolated in anyway quite the opposite I’m still “Paul” and all that in entails these aspects of discovery are the trajectory of my development, my learning, my language, my visual processing etc. They are apart of me but don’t ultimately define – I’m still creative, eager to learn, eager to live and with the set of cards I have been dealt I will use them ultimately to the best of my abilities. Hope springs eternal. 🙂

Special Thanks to Donna Williams & Dr Manuel Casanova

Paul Isaacs 2014


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The Brain Of Someone With Autism – Dr Manuel Casanova

Dr Casanova

Dr Casanova

DR MANUEL CASANOVA

I have a lot of respect for this gentleman, his work is very much to do with the questions that many people ask about the brain of someone with Autism the what’s? and the whys? and the hows? In his research Manuel Casanova has pursued to answer those questions in detail with many different cases studies into under and over connectivity in the brain to how the brain grows, is it genetic? is it acquired? a mix? What else? The endless possibilities are open to be explored but I would like to point out to you that Manuel has a deep care and kindness for people on the Autism spectrum and their personhoods. 🙂

MINI COLUMNS (M. CASANOVA) 

This is to with sensory perceptual issues within Autism and brain connectivity, information processing, motion control, agnosias, aphasias, apraxias, learning difficulties, learning disabilities etc. I find this very interesting because it’s giving an inside perspective of what is making someone with Autism think, feel and process the world differently.

SHADES OF GREY BLOG ABOUT MINI COLUMNS  

CONCLUSION 

I like the work that Manuel is doing with care, dedication, empowerment and understanding for others on the spectrum, their loved ones and more. 🙂 Taking the time and effort to do this reflects what I have just said above and it also shows that care that he has for folks on the spectrum.

MANUEL’S BLOG

MANUEL’S OTHER WORKS

Thanks for Manuel. 🙂

Paul Isaacs  2014

 


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Why I Say “I” and not “We” When I’m Talking About Autism Profiles/Fruit Salads (D.Williams)

Fruit Salad Analogy Donna Williams

Fruit Salad Analogy Copyright D.Williams

 

OVERVIEW

When I speak about Autism and my Profile/Fruit Salad I make a point of saying that is mine and that all people on the spectrum are different they have different –

  1. Developmental Trajectories (genetics, brain injury etc)
  2. Information Processing Issues 
  3. Cluster Syndromes
  4. Some have Metabolic/Auto-Immune Syndromes others don’t
  5. Different Personalities
  6. Environments/Experiences
  7. Learning Styles/Learning Difficulties/Learning Disabilities 

 

DONNA WILLIAMS FRUIT SALAD ANALOGY (1995/2005)

CONCLUSION – I CAN’T SPEAK FOR EVERYBODY ON THE SPECTRUM

I cannot make points about other people and over generalise that ALL people on the autism spectrum experience the world as me. To me that is rather bizarre – like a non-autistic person saying that ALL non-autistic people act in this way and that is it. 🙂

We are all diverse on the spectrum and off, I often say if you can take pieces of what I have said and relate them to someone then that is cool and also if you don’t that’s fine too. I  like listening to other people on the spectrum – to hear others experiences  as they have vastly different processing issues and Fruit Salads to me and vice versa. That is so important. I don’t know everything about Autism and I will continue to learn through others. 🙂

We can all learn from others. 🙂

Paul Isaacs 2014