Note – This is from a personal and professional perspective of autism politics, identity and ideas on ways forward
Personal Perceptions on Diagnosis, Trajectory & Birthing Factors
When I was diagnosed in 2010 it gave an explanation of interconnected and identified conditions that happen to be “autistic” because of the stacking of them and the presentation.
So what are they? Well let’s start from the beginning I was born a month premature (this is linked to neurological underdevelopment, speech, language and motor coordination delays), brain injury due to placental abruption (cerebral hypoxia which probably caused a variety of agnosias and sensory perceptual challenges – simultagnosia, form agnosia, semantic agnosia, aphasia and hemiplegia), caesarean section (oxytocin depletion, sensory perception, autoimmune and hormonal imbalances).
Personhood, Humanity & Self Acceptance
So what I am challenging here? That there is not “one road to rome” in terms of presentation or trajectory because it’s multifaceted, layered, nuanced and three dimensional. Relating to someone is more than simply sharing experiences, it’s about meaningful connections.
The next aspect is “identity” all above are not an issue of identity nor a choice it happened. All mitigating factors were out of my control. My issue here how this word is used currently.
My personhood regardless is what I value first – that I want to be seen as a human being, with wants, needs and preferences. I see myself as part of the human race.
Autism, Personality Types & “Autistic Personalities”
Being solitary, mercurial, idiosyncratic, self – sacrificing and serious in terms of personality types, temperament and preferences isn’t “autism” (although being solitary/idiosyncratic/conscientious/sensitive may appear more “autistic” but the guts aren’t).
Having OCD, exposure anxiety and dissociation isn’t autism, having been diagnosed with personality disorders, psychosis and auditory hallucinations (due to a nervous breakdown in 2007) isn’t autism and having PTSD (due to sexual abuse) isn’t autism.
The Lense Of Acknowledgment Not Self – Pity
I would also like to point out that none of these things make me feel like a victim or proclaim victimhood, objectively these mental health conditions are from genetics and impacted and amplified by certain life experiences, but in the end it is my responsibility to take accountability for them.
I would say for newcomers it’s completely understandable how these things look interchangeable, however what I have noticed is people sharing information that is inaccurate then creates a ripple effect.
Autism Politics – Does It Temper Public & Internal Perceptions?
This is why I don’t like that autism politics is not about making change, it’s about in-fighting, narcissistic supply and being the next person on the trend band wagon.
Let’s be real, be objective, look at people’s own reality and value a person’s sense of being and humanity – Militancy from the culturist and curist modalities aren’t helpful they reduce autism to its respective parts through the lens of the extreme.
This is why I am moderate I like and see people, appreciate healthy debate and disagreement and look at the challenges as they are rather than what they are not.
Acknowledging that group think and confirmation bias exists in this axis is something for newcomers to be aware of.
Looking At Objectivity & Realism
However, these experiences have tempered my presentation over the years. This is of course my reality not a representation of everyone’s because it’s an impossible task to undertake and unattainable. People may need to think of “autisms” in the plural.
That is why I feel like defining your whole “being” by one word is reductive, collectivist and naive, autism is something neither to be demonised, nor glamorised, so healthy discourse would suggest that we meet people were they are, be person-centered and see autism as the late Donna Williams’ (Polly Samuel) would a describe it as a “fruit salad”.
Paul Isaacs 2024