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I Don’t Mind Being Solitary – Looking Beyond The Stereotypes

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Main Interests of the Solitary Personality Type

  1. finding solitude; being alone
  2. remaining independent; maintaining autonomy; being self-contained
  3. being dispassionate
  4. being indifferent to pleasure and pain
  5. remaining sexually composed; avoiding attachment to anyone
  6. being uninfluenced by praise or criticism

 

Characteristic Traits and Behaviors

Dr. John M. Oldham has defined the Solitary personality style. The following six characteristic traits and behaviors are listed in his The New Personality Self-Portrait.

  1. Solitude. Individuals with the Solitary personality style have small need of companionship and are most comfortable alone.
  2. Independence. They are self-contained and do not require interaction with others in order to enjoy their experiences or to get on in life.
  3. Sangfroid. Solitary men and women are even-tempered, calm, dispassionate, unsentimental, and unflappable.
  4. Stoicism. They display an apparent indifference to pain and pleasure.
  5. Sexual composure. They are not driven by sexual needs. They enjoy sex but will not suffer in its absence.
  6. Feet on the ground. They are unswayed by either praise or criticism and can confidently come to terms with their own behavior.

“Autism” Is Not A Personality Type

People often think that “autism” has a “look” it doesn’t and never has when people think of autism they may think and/or mentalise certain people they have come across, members of the family, people in movies and/or films etc.

Solitary By What Factors?

Being solitary can fall into differing camps some people can be solitary by circumstances that are out of their control such as the loss of parents and/or guardians, having a small family and other circumstances others may have the complete opposite but their values and environmental factor and/or influences. Some can be both.

I fall into the the category of of circumstance/ environment genetic my family is small, I have sister who I have only met three times when I was in my late teens, I still have my parents and my Nan on my mother’s side. I have never had a partner and would consider myself asexual.

I Value Life

What has this given me time to do? I say that because people are probably going to focus on the the things I have missed or not been apart of? I understand why such comment or feelings would be made. I do not feel I have missed out on anything nor do I feel I have been given a ticket that has not taken me to all the places in the amusement park.

Observing, Friendships & Interests

I love life and being observer of people, the goings on, their life stories and so forth I feel connected to them. I have friends that are real friends because they are people who connect with rather than people that I feel I should be connecting with (there is a massive difference). I like going for long walks on my own, drawing, creating poetry/creative writings, watching movies and listening to music. I like sharing these things as well as “being”. This of course is peppered by being Idiosyncratic, Mercurial & Self Sacrificing.

Conclusion

I feel this have made me as I have matured more objective before you go out into the “world” you have be your own best friend first regardless of your wants and needs in life.

Paul Isaacs 2018

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What is Achievement?

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Do you judge achievement by the vastness of comparisons or by the person cantered nature of what has been achieved? I have not married nor have I the desired to have children. I ask how is my life welling up with fullness and ethereal walkings amongst the populous of humanity? Because I am comfortable in the roads, paths and darkly forests that tread beneath my feet. I think “achievement” is not what, if or how it’s the reason and honest virtues behind them that make them special and worthy.

Paul Isaacs 2017


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Meeting Up With The Kings – Part 2

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I enjoyed very much the time I spent with Kings who show great humility, kindness and gracious affection and homeliness. When I entered their home I was greeted by lovely smiles and warmth that trickled into my soul and made me feel an better person and a more completed being. I such relished the opportunity to glide with them through their family duties with candid humour, streams of meaningful intentions, words dominated and unsuppressed wantings, needing and beings where presented in a warmly household.

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Whose sole intentions are to be open and show the utmost loving for mortal people and animals that lightened up many a darkened patch from soddened ground to beautifully fertile and transient piecing the heart of me with curiosity. I would love to visit again. 

Paul Isaacs 2017


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I Am Glad I Got Bullied And Here’s Why

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Note this is from a personal perspective 

I was speaking with two friends this evening and the subject of school-life came up it was an interesting exercise in subjectivity, objectivity and personal experiences shaping people’s lives but not defining them as we all move on.

My friend respectfully and realistically pointed out the fact that when students are at school (regardless of disability or otherwise) they are on their own unique journeys and difficulties can arise from all sorts of areas which have an impact of self-esteem, confidence and the ability to thrive on a functional level.

Enviroment vs. Social-Emotional Development

I was diagnosed late after my mainstream education had finished the best foundation for “social” I was given was through my tenure in education. It gave me the ability to cope with stressful situations, integrate and overall gave me the invaluable skills of living a “human life” rather than a “autistic life”. I was around people and my disability was not being flag waved to the point where I lost myself and was only defined by one single factor.

Is Bullying/Psychopathy Normal in Educational Settings?

I was surrounded by people who used interpretive speech. I still find this mode of speaking difficult and it is something I have aqquired a long the way in the context of school yes that was true. I cannot deny the verbal and at times physical abuse I encountered at school by other students on a daily basis as ‘normal‘ as their conscious psychothapy and narcissism was allowed run free regardless of the emotional damage that ensued.

Yes it is subjective and many of the students that bullied were emotionally insucure however being so doesn’t give you a free ticket to do it to others, however they did. I see this as a learning curve and lessons in life and I am thankful to learn from the shit and make sculptures out of it. 🙂

They may have changed which is great, found families, bared children etc I wish them well on their journeys.

Human Journeys

We (as people) are all on our journeys and bullying and victimisation was part of my experience however many others have been in the similar situations and I refuse to define my present situation by the past experiences. I am indifferent and objective about my past it happened and I am done with the “what could have beens” and “what ifs” I am thankful for my overall experience I would not have had it any other way.

I consider my reality no better or worse than any others, I don’t consider myself “special”, “better” and/or “superior” to anyone else. Affirmation has to be contextual and real not dished out like candy with hollow self-praise. There are too many people in the western world who just want their cake and to eat it all if only it was to shared out a bit more so other people’s realities could be shared and equally acknowledged with the sub-test of mine is better/worse than yours.

Tides of Glory 

I strayed and came about

Eager to scream and longing to shout

I have travelled a life which has been painted

I refuse to see my deepest memories as tainted

Come up and down and my thoughts fleeting around

I pick my body and ground my mind with the comfort of sound

A cloud full memories embraced and feetful of walking to be chased

A human being am I no better nor worse living a madless time at even pace

Paul Isaacs 2017

 

 


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To Polly – A Friend – Thank You

 

To Polly A Friend

Words cannot plunder

The source of your wonder

A light in the bleak dark

Words that make their mark

A kindly soul with the gift to give

A balanced example of how to live

A humbling experience your facts and humour

Your words, pictures and  legacy will forever nearer and sooner

Empowerment 

What can I say? I often have wondered how to put into words how I feel about the impact that Polly has made on my life, the words, the support, the chuckles over our skype chats the personal and professional guidance that was given in the blink of an eye. She has helped broaden my professional career, empowered me to find myself and ultimately has given me invaluable tools.

Setting Examples 

The kindness and concern the building blocks shown by words and example and the insatiable zest for life and to “just be” in your own skin, to have fun, to be serious, to be balanced, to be caring, to be selfless, to be you, to understand me and other, to be giving and to be caring, to not put yourselves above and to finally find yourself and pave your own journey so you may have the tools to experience life anew. That is what I think when I will remember Polly a shining example of balance, breaking of barriers, retaining self, not selling out and creating her own path.

Connecting 

I meet Polly briefly in 2009 at a conference and connected with her on social media a few years later. I value her friendship because she showed me that relationships can be built on safe, secure and balanced foundations and to expect anything less is the time to move on and pave something new. I am fully aware people knew Polly far more than I did in terms of length of time and so forth. I would like to say that the impact she made on me and her continued friendship online put faith and self-belief back into a realistic and doable perspective.

I thank you Polly for giving me the tools to empower, for giving me hope, laughs, reality and solutions and just being you.

Nobody Nowhere – Paper Owl Films 

Paul Isaacs 2017

 


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To Friends for Friends What is Happiness? :-)

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 This is sage works, thoughts and feelings from social media when I said about doing a blog about “What is Happiness?” I am pleased with the diverse and really lovely responses. 🙂

  • being understood by people
  • Happiness is what you make of your life and live it to the whole without
  • Happiness is fleeting
  • Joy
  • Happiness for me is seeing my children happy – x
  • I think he’s writing in the broader sense x
  • Happiness is my aspergers. [13 year old] son making me a fan from parts he savaged from dead DVD / equipment and lego – powered by USB and a solar panel to help me with my [menopause] hot flushes.
  • Happiness is walking around with a clear head, able to observe and enjoy the surroundings without anxiety.
  • Or eating a different food 🙂 x
  • Still seeing my little one even though I’m away visiting my Mum who’s 300 miles away.
  • Seeing my amazing son grow from being an angry, confused boy who struggled with ‘the world’ into an ever growing confident , young man with so much to look forward to 💙
  • Happiness is my dog x
  • A fleeting feeling when things are going well. All the more potent when it arrives unexpectedly 😊
  • All of my children bring happiness to me. I am so proud of who they are. I am also happy when my baby makes progress.
  • Happiness is being relaxed, safe and challenged in an enjoyable way.
  • GBU
  • Happiness to me is enjoying the moment without stress or fear but feeling completely at one with the world and relaxed . Its a strong rich feeling making life feel good when you experience it. X
  • Happiness is making a genuine difference through collaborative and creative autism awareness workshops. Nobody wins unless everybody wins 🙂 Hope to see you at one of your future talks, Paul. Best Wishes
  • Happiness is our son being happy. (We only have one child) 😊
  • Doing something I enjoy doing!
  • For me, I think there are very different sorts of happiness. Perhaps the most intense is being aware that someone I love is happy; if it is because of me, that’s even better. Another is feeling that I have done a good job intellectually in some way and increased the sum total of human knowledge. Another is the great feeling of physical well-being that endorphins give you after you’ve been exercising. I climb whenever I can, partly because it is great fun in itself and partly because whatever stresses and anxieties are bugging my life, I feel great once I’ve worn myself out doing it. These are all very important to me.
  • Happiness happens when i’m alone. Its like my brain gets some high by being alone
  • Happiness is being fulfilled. I don’t think the pursuit of happiness is very helpful in itself but the pursuit of being fulfilled..? That’s a slightly different goal but changes entirely how you look at life!
  • Happiness to me isn’t a result of anything, despite its arrival often being influenced by certain things or thoughts or thoughts of things – it is the glowy thing, that glowy thing within, and when it glows inside me, it beams around my bodymask making everything else seem more glowy than usual, and it can be passed around and shared like a flowy magnetic glitter-ocean, though can also be snatched and disappeared at an instant by the click of the claws of a happy-snatching monster.
  • Happiness for me, is…
    As a mum: To see my children achieve even the smallest thing independently. For my boy with autism, especially, when he’s made an independent decision, and when he chooses to hug me and show love. For my NT girl, hearing her laugh big and loud with her friends; watching her dance and hearing her sing.
  • As a professional: Feeling productive and part of a process to produce something worthwhile. Being individual but within a team.
  • As an autism volunteer: When a parent tells me that they no longer feel alone; seeing parents’ reactions when their children reach out to another child or young person and socialise for the first time at Parents Talking Asperger’s.
  • As a friend: Being there for friends whatever in good times and bad.
  • As daughter: Just being with my beloved parents even for five minutes.
  • As a Christian: Learning to be what God wants me to be to serve him and help others. Thanks Paul.
  • to me happiness is knowing that I have the resources to deal with whatever comes up. Not much to ask hey? X
  • You can choose happiness no matter what is going on around you. Happiness isn’t just being content – God gives us the opportunity to see good in all by allowing happiness. But it is a choice.
  • I’ve come to realised that for me, happiness is acceptance of the journey. 😁
  • Easy company with the people I love who are wholly accepting of who I am. X
  • Sitting outside with family and friends during a breezy day. And having a bon fire at night.

Paul Isaacs and many contributors 2016


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The Oceans Of Communities

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The new media of the book of face has made me once question my values of what friendship really is – I have come to the conclusion that fruitfulness of friendship and unity knows no bounds like a lake travelling out to sea and crossing oceans of culture, language and other worlds that are just within a grasp – deep and meaningfulness is solidified in the connectedness that is felt with each person – so a friendship is just as important as a friend whom decides otherwise not to be apart of your life but to carrying with their own that is not sad occasion but a freeing one – wish them no ill as it is not something that comes readily but live in hope that everybody finds grounded being in this world.

Paul Isaacs 2016