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Autism from the inside


In The Last Ten Years

Looking Back

The last ten years have been very intersting in 2009 I was recently out of the Mental Health Services with two personality disorders, auditory hallucinations and psychosis, I was self harming and attempted suicide.

Early Infancy

By clinical observations I was serverely autistic, I was profoundly meaning deaf, meaning blind, body disconnected, oral apraxic and didn’t gain functional speech till later in infancy. I was and am thankful to my parents who had no means of any interventions (in the late 80s many were dated).

In 2010 I was diagnosed with autism and OCD and my speaking career started off in which I went freelance in 2015.

“Standards of Success”

By “non-autistic” standards I “made it” in many ways I suppose. I was considered “retarded” by the village I lived in and was targeted and bullied by the children and adults till my mid-teens.

Education

I was targeted and bullied at school from primary to secondary when I finally left in 2002 (with an isolated incident of sexual abuse) in the latter.

I went on to do an ICT coursecfor a year and had the greatest experience of my life from and educational perspective it proved I could be educated.

Bullying and Employment

The bullying in employment started in 2002/3 so multiple jobs were lost and gained.

I was thankful to the autism base in Chinnor in around 2008/9 for supporting me as well as the start of my speaking career in 2010. Over that period of time I wrote and authored 5 books.

The bullying in employment stopped in 2015 when I went freelance and started working for My World.

This is longest time in employment that I have been safe, comfortable and seen as a part of the team.

I Am A Person-First

People wonder why I use “person-first language” this is why because I do not want to be defined by a “label”. I do not like serperatist “them and us, us and them” rhetoric we (as beings) are all a part of the human race

From 2013 onwards to now I am pleased to have met some of the most wonderful and friendly people in both my personal and professional life.

Love and Life

I lost my Gramp in March 2017 due to metatastic prostate cancer, one of my dearest friends and mentors Polly (Donna Williams) in April that year also to metatastic breast cancer and my Nan in December 2019 due to pneumonia. I shall always cherish my fondest memories of them.

I almost lost my Dad in 2011 due to chronic lymphocytic leukemia and then meningitis in 2018 as well as my Mum in May 2019 due to a complex thrombotic disease.

Creative Mindsets

I have had great fun dabbling in art, poetry and what I call “insta-modelling” in which to my surprise and support from my friends up north has been rather enjoyable!

I have been interested in androgyny for many years prior and have been told I look as such.

One of things I can do well is pluck my eyebrows which I consider an achievement as much as anything else! 😉

Conclusion

So look beyond what is here, look beyond what is heard, what is seen, what is touched and sense people because every cherished little person is special and of equal valor and humility in this world.

Paul Isaacs 2020


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Be The Best Version Of Yourself

In a sometimes mind boggling world of shallow, narrow cucumber minded folk. Remember to be the person you want to be, when you close your eyes, wake up, make breakfast and go to work.

Short and timely travels within a flesh vessel of chemicals, minerals, fluids and too many a complication to bubble upon the cooking fat of existence.

I do no t adhere to clubs of a singular mentality for sometimes a heard can lead the blinkered people towards darkly paths of anxiety and self recriminations.

So I say crumble the falsehoods of separation, for they create longer bridges of acceptance to cross, know you are one person with the ability of helpfulness to share love upon everyone.

Paul Isaacs 2019


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No One Should Be Poor – The Top Down Society

Social Security – Why make cuts in the first place? 

People with illnesses and disabilities should not keep “proving” something that they have and then run the risk of losing income because of “cuts”. Social security was put in place to aid and support the vulnerable in society – social security should not be up for cutting anymore as the price of living is increasing.

Remember the value of having a welfare and social security system

The problem with cutting welfare is it defeats the object and intention of what welfare is and who it is for people may have hard times in their life this not to say that I would want this on anyone but it can and does happen to people and wouldn’t it be moral and productive to help?

Different trajectories and reasons for using welfare and social security 

For example a person may lose their job and need a transition period between jobs  or they may have an injury or illness that means they are off work for a long period of time or have to (in some circumstances) quit work altogether.

Some people may acquire a disability in their life time such as a head injury, physical injury or both, some people may be born with such disabilities and/or illnesses.

The National Health and other National Services 

Privatising national services -does that work? 

Everybody has the right to enter all forms of care in their lives from the basics such as general practitioner appointments, dental appointments, hospital appointments, “social” housing and other services that fall under national or local services. If you over privatise you are falling into a a “top down society” where it falls down to money and the people who are able to afford such services can but other’s may not be able to even get the basics.

This to me is a huge step backwards in both morality and common sense the national services are meant for everybody this means that is doesn’t matter where you are in the “class system” it is for “you” – I am glad that people have been supporting the nationalisation of NHS (which if you think about is odd that a “public service” is becoming “private”) I have faith that this will prevail.

Conclusion

In order to see the logistics one must filter through the nonsense the money deficit in this country doesn’t make sense when millions is being spent on one thing but not on another. If it continues to be used as reason for such cuts that keep happening then how deep can cuts go? It seems that people have rightfully being challenging the cuts and telling their stories of what it is like for them, their friends, families and people’s communities.

I live in hope common sense and a simple act of morality will prosper. Socialism in its true form is not flawed it is about building a fair, democratic equal society that is what people in general should strive for.

Paul Isaacs 2016


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Reflections for the New Year and Life

IMAG0272I hope all have a grateful New Year and are ready to spread their wings into different ventures and pathways, you may have to go down a different path and/or continue down the same one until the cross-roads of life unfold you may have do things that are uncomfortable but necessary you may need to do things that continue to give you joy and stability – burning bridges with the philosophy that isn’t shallow but needed, contextual and logical.

Keeping and valuing good friends and loved ones whom value you as you do them with the veneer less intentions and faces with what you see is what you get none too one-sided or over invested but just balanced – this is hopefully something that is learned to me in the coming year to strive to me more balanced, have good emotional management, to not be a doormat or be used by untrustworthy agendas and shallow people he thing more about you can do for them a less about the person you are, to value real friend and companionship this will not just be for 2016 but something that I can work on in the ages.

Paul Isaacs 2016


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In The End We Are ALL Human Beings & That Is Fine

To stay grounded and not get whipped up be the construct of “other” through “fame” – to be seen as a “being” that is on an equal plane is far more rewarding, beneficial socially, emotional binding empowering. People are after all are people and one is no better nor worse than anybody else be yourself.

Then maybe we would live in more selfless (rather than selfish) society.

Paul Isaacs 2015


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Ending Racism – The Illogical Perception That Hating Others Is “Right” It Isn’t

Why?

I often wondering why some would hate someone for such reasons? – How someone gets to the point of were they hate someone so much that they feel the immoral validation to take peoples lives just to “prove a point” or to “send a message” this sort of mentality not only needs to be challenged but also be challenged to  why someone would have such a perception in the first place. It is simply wrong.

Hate Does Nothing

Hate has never caused any solutions nor solved any problems but by ending hate that will have many positive outcomes for all people, equalism, opportunities, positive validation (being listen too and acknowledged as person) and communities coming together. 🙂

STAYWOKE – Together, we will END racism and police violence in America. Get involved. #StayWoke

Paul Isaacs 2015


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The Political Landscape Of Tomorrow Becomes Today

CenobiteReflective Thinking 

I don’t usually talk about politics but today I woke up to a Conservative Government a this is truly worrying for me – my parents lived through the hardships of the the earlier Conservative government in the past. So if you want cuts to your NHS, benefits and social security lampooned and made light of with stereotypes a plunder to induce further cutting, bedroom tax, elderly fuel allowance cut, pension ages to rise, employment to rise (but at what emotional cost!) and the constant propaganda about the deficit needing to be tackled when “money” can just be created anyway, the broadening of the rich/poor gap while they sit idle on there ivory towers looking over their “kingdoms” they have created then congratulations you have got it. Welcome to hell!

However…read my next post for some more reflective thinking. 😉

Paul Isaacs 2015