The last ten years have been very intersting in 2009 I was recently out of the Mental Health Services with two personality disorders, auditory hallucinations and psychosis, I was self harming and attempted suicide.
By clinical observations I was serverely autistic, I was profoundly meaning deaf, meaning blind, body disconnected, oral apraxic and didn’t gain functional speech till later in infancy. I was and am thankful to my parents who had no means of any interventions (in the late 80s many were dated).
In 2010 I was diagnosed with autism and OCD and my speaking career started off in which I went freelance in 2015.
“Standards of Success”
By “non-autistic” standards I “made it” in many ways I suppose. I was considered “retarded” by the village I lived in and was targeted and bullied by the children and adults till my mid-teens.
I was targeted and bullied at school from primary to secondary when I finally left in 2002 (with an isolated incident of sexual abuse) in the latter.
I went on to do an ICT coursecfor a year and had the greatest experience of my life from and educational perspective it proved I could be educated.
Bullying and Employment
The bullying in employment started in 2002/3 so multiple jobs were lost and gained.
I was thankful to the autism base in Chinnor in around 2008/9 for supporting me as well as the start of my speaking career in 2010. Over that period of time I wrote and authored 5 books.
The bullying in employment stopped in 2015 when I went freelance and started working for My World.
This is longest time in employment that I have been safe, comfortable and seen as a part of the team.
I Am A Person-First
People wonder why I use “person-first language” this is why because I do not want to be defined by a “label”. I do not like serperatist “them and us, us and them” rhetoric we (as beings) are all a part of the human race
From 2013 onwards to now I am pleased to have met some of the most wonderful and friendly people in both my personal and professional life.
Love and Life
I lost my Gramp in March 2017 due to metatastic prostate cancer, one of my dearest friends and mentors Polly (Donna Williams) in April that year also to metatastic breast cancer and my Nan in December 2019 due to pneumonia. I shall always cherish my fondest memories of them.
I have had great fun dabbling in art, poetry and what I call “insta-modelling” in which to my surprise and support from my friends up north has been rather enjoyable!
I have been interested in androgyny for many years prior and have been told I look as such.
One of things I can do well is pluck my eyebrows which I consider an achievement as much as anything else! 😉
So look beyond what is here, look beyond what is heard, what is seen, what is touched and sense people because every cherished little person is special and of equal valor and humility in this world.
Paul Isaacs 2020