Note this is from a personal perspective
Yesterday I presented a speech on my life with autism afterwards I had an interesting conversation with a lady who specialises in aphasia and language development so I thought I would go through my language trajectory.
I had both delays in speech and language acquisition this means that I was missing milestones on both these areas of language development – this was noted by my parents during those early years of development and I didn’t a level of functionality to my speech until late infancy.
This meant the the language of “the world around me” was a garbled tumbling mess that was feel of noises, inflections but not “meaning” in the typical sense at times I would be interested in these “noises” perplexed, intrigued even but it was very much a swirling bottle neck with the words being at the deepest part of ocean within the sea-back grasping yet not.
When expressive language did present itself it was not at the level firstly of my chronological age and secondly what coming did not reflect what I wanted to say to people around me so there was quite rightfully and frustration there as words would “drop” both receptively and expressibly sentence construction, “word-finding” and neologisms which came in the form of echolalia was present and having created my “own language” (pattern, them and feel) before typical interpretative language and unpicking that was difficult. As I have said I had before I had “words” within my head but grasping them, finding them and using them was being “blocked” by other factors.
Looking at my overall trajectory would say that I had global anomic aphasia coupled with additional difficulties created by the visual perceptual disorders and oral apraxia.
Visual Agnosias, Simultagnosia & Semantic Agnosia – Related to Anomia
The word finding aspects I can split into two aspects firstly the nature of aphasia itself and not being able to use word retrieval and secondly the perceptual disorders (visual fragmentation, visual semantic problems) and not having “visuals” for words meant that making tangible and “concrete” associations was difficult.
I had to use a lot of tactile-associative strategies sniffing, rubbing, mouthing and sculpting my “external reality” in order to get a aspect of meaning I still very much “live in a world” before the literal so significance and bridging the gaps are important to me.
This meant that perceiving objects, people, faces was one aspect verbally being able to name them was another aspect of language which I found difficult.
I had this which layered the impact of speech production the use of my tongue, mouth, jaw and having a level of “disconnect” between the “words”, the “mind” and “body” not acting as team and going on there own path this caused difficulties in expression this carried on for many years and was notable present in observations of me at a CAMHS assessment in 1996 for at that time clinical depression.
I would say the are in particular when I am tired this is something I have become more aware of as I have researched and got older so this means that sometimes my expressive speech can become laboured, slow and I can miss out words in sentences and struggle with “word-finding” etc. What helps me is music, gesture, tone, placement, telegraphic language and objects of reference to gain the firstly and foundation and then secondly meaningful association. However as always I continue to live life, experience life and enjoy life as much as possible with new experiences, friends and creativity 😉
Paul Isaacs 2016