This is a laymen’s terms/accessible version of my autism profile – although I have written previous blogs with technical information about the “mechanics” of my autism here is an “easy read” version of my autism which is broken down into a heading and paragraphs and/or sentences with hyperlinks attached for further information.
As always this is from a personal perspective.
Alexithymia (Emotional Processing)
Not understanding, processing or receiving my own emotions in “real time” this also affects how I understand bodily messages such as thirst and hunger. Poetry, painting , drawing and music help me process my emotions contextually.
Aphasia (Language Processing)
I have processing delay with language this means I struggle to find words, lose them, find them again and lose them again etc – I live before literal and struggle to find significance in language – however music, beats, rhythm and gesture help me access meaningful language.
Speech Delay (Developmental Milestone)
The developmental milestone of speech was delayed noticeably during my early years (please checkout other blogs for further information).
Language Delay (Developmental Milestone)
The developmental language milestone was delayed even when speech was acquired.
Speech Apraxia (Verbal Dyspraxia) (Body Disconnection/Mouth Coordination )
I had a disconnect between my body and brain so my brain would have words but my body (mouth, jaws, tongue and lips) didn’t seem to want to “join up” this lead to feeling of heightened frustration to total indifference.
In times of anxiety and/or dissociation I would become mute.
This was due to an invasive sensation of something being within my throat, this would cause me to throat clear in an abrupt and idiosyncratic (odd) fashion.
Echophenomena (Developmental Milestones – Speech, Movement, Body Language)
- Echolalia – Echoing of words (delayed and instant)
- Echopraxia Echoing of movements (delayed)
- Echomimia Echoing of facial expressions (delayed)
- Palilalia Echoing of one’s own words (instant/delayed)
Visual Agnosias (Visual Perceptual Disorders/”Seeing” without meaning and/or “Seeing” but not piecing the “wholes” together)
Not retaining associative meaning with what is being seen, so I would tap, sniff, lick, rub, mouth and tongue to gain a reality and an experience of my surrounding environments.
Not seeing in wholes – so seeing “fragments” and not seeing the “whole visual picture” of one’s environment.
Not perceiving faces and/or recognising people by their faces.
Visual – Verbal Agnosia (Comprehension Blindness)
Reading without internalising/retaining meaning this is related to mentalising.
Seeing colours but not processing/understanding or recognising differentiation between them by name. (in my case I recognise red but struggle to sometimes name other colours).
Mirror Agnosia (Visual Processing)
Not understanding nor processing “other” or “self” in mirrors for example I would and still get fooled by mirrors and when I was younger and used to think that was behind me was in front of me (foreground and background distortion).
I didnot associate that the person in the mirror was “me” until my mid-teens. (associated with visual perceptual disorders).
Form Agnosia (Visual/Cognitive/Auditory & Contextual)
Not configuring the contextual “whole”.
Pure Auditory Agnosia (Auditory Perception)
Not processing/understanding the “origins” of sounds and associating them when I next “hear” them.
A type of aphasia (Language processing disorder).
Tonal Agnosia (Atonia) (Language Processing/Related to Aphasia)
I “hear” tone but sometimes do not associate with meaning.
Pain Agnosia (Body Disconnection)
I do not perceive pain at all and/or there is a significant delay in recognition.
I do not recognise my body in space so I wear tight clothes, bracelets, tight shoes to get a “reference” of my body.
As a child I had trouble reference that I had fingers and “where they were” this was due to body disconnection.
Paul Isaacs 2015