Snapshot In Time
I said once sometime ago that in the Autism World I’m the square peg in the round hole, this certainly still applies – my dignity (currently what’s left of it) has been stripped, my mental health plummeted (I have had one month of stability so far) and it is too much for me. I have views that count just like anybody else and I don’t feel equal in a world (Autism) that told me I would be, I don’t feel equal when I accept others points of view but I am still “wrong”‘.
I don’t feel equal at all I feel I’m the lowest of the low because I don’t confirm to majority’s thought. We all need to listen and not project, I’m no better than anyone else but I have been made to feel worse because of this. No I’m not equal at all in the Autism world to many politics and it had had made me ill. I thought it was inclusion for all?
I was gravely mistaken. The only person apart from my close family and friends who has helped me retain my dignity is Donna Williams and I thank her for it.
All because I wanted to give the message that I’m a person? And so are others on the spectrum? I am saddened and ashamed at how I have been treated.
Why? that is the question? The reality came calling the day I wrote this and what I say is that in order to be oneself one must not be confined by militant, sycophantic , limerant and bullying behaviours (this includes people on and off the autism spectrum) and equally what I have learned is to learn to not be affected as I was when this was written. I have been bullied, lied to and manipulated in the Autism world (causing a nervous breakdown and 8/9 months of mental illness) by people I thought I could trust and quite frankly I want no part of a “world” that advocates such things This is indeed a snapshot in time.
Condition First Language & Autism Group Think
I will not be defined by a condition and I will always be “Paul” and I will not accept militant behaviours but must accept to let them get on with it – My message is not to get involved in Autism Politics unless you have a strong stomach. 😉 I have nothing to prove and nothing to fear from not being in the “in-crowd”.
The point of inclusion is to include everybody and politely and democratically agree to disagree in circumstances of difference – As I have said before not one person can talk for all people on the spectrum (that includes people on the spectrum who are public speakers/trainers)
- Not one person has Autism the same way as everyone else
- There should be more inclusion for people who have a Learning Disability
- People on the spectrum who use other forms of communication to get their inner words out
- People on the spectrum who have Auto-Immune Disorders
I will always be a non-conformist, there’s conformity in that
Adult with Autism 2014