PATTERN, THEME & FEEL (D.WILLIAMS) – A WORLD BEFORE “KNOWINGNESS”
I was non-verbal for 5 years or more (I had a lot of words ds in my head) I had speech and language delay Aphasia,Apraxia of speech, Auditory verbal agnosia) – (expressive and receptive) my Mum thought I was deaf and blind (this was due to Visual agnosias and Auditory agnosias), I used movements, clicks, sounds to convey information to others (I still use this when happy, excited and/or distressed) I consider this my “primary language” and interpretive language a second language I learned), pre-verbal than functional expressive speech at around 7/8 years old (1993/1994) that was of a 3 year old expressively.
I didn’t understand that conversations were between two people for a very long time used to look at two fragmented blobs making sounds at each other at pre-school and found it rather amusing but didn’t connect that it was an interaction. I used to make noises/whispers at other children I sat next to in the playground with (that was my form of a conversation) some time also.
BODY DISCONNECTION & VISUAL MEANING
I was already putting my arm behind my back that was to do with trying to connect my body with myself (body disconnectivity), probably liking the feeling of the fur and not quite understanding contextually where I was.
Paul Isaacs 2014