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Pattern Theme & Feel – A World Before Interpretation D. Williams

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Paul with Camel

Me with Camel


So in other words my secondary communication is verbal “typical communication” which has taken many years to mould and use with meaning, context and structure my “primary communication” is that (two posts below) and my “inner language” has slowly come out in a through that language.

Left Hemisphere of the Brain is what controls semantics (meaning) so Echolalia,EchopraxiaVisual agnosiaProsopagnosia, Visual-Verbal Agnosia, Auditory agnosia, Verbal Auditory verbal agnosiaAphasia come from mis-connections and/or genetics/brain injury as Dr Manuel Casanova pointed out in hid review of my Autobiography Living Through The Haze: Life On The Autistic Spectrum By Paul Isaacs .  that explains a lot why I live in that world, and I’m thankful that my parents despite all this so me as “Paul” again recognition of my selfhood was very empowering to me.


I had speech and language delay and was “seemingly non-verbal” I gained functional speech in between the ages of 7/8 years old, but I still live in a Pattern, Theme and Feel Word where my movements, language and emotions are processed through this function.

I had words WITHIN ME all the time – so my message is don’t assume that being externally non-verbal means no words within and no intelligence you’ll get it wrong.

I would make high-pitched sounds – and still do when go to my “primary communication” such as

  • “Eeeeee!!!” is “happy” which includes clapping and jumping
  • Low sounds “ugggg!!!” – Is Unhappy
  • And/or “clicking” sounds with my tongue – Represents Anxiety
  • Head hitting – Processing problems
  • Chest thumping – I would like come back to this world please
  • Head banging – I can’t cope I need some help
  • Sniffing, Licking, Tapping, Mouthing, Rubbing Surroundings – What are you?
  • Sculpting Faces – Who are you?
  • Tilting Head – I Remember You! And I like your company

Which sound and look like “nonsense” to others, but makes perfect sense to me, movements and theme fit the mood. I thank my parents for seeing me as Paul and that my personhood is important.


I’m very much an Autie in that respect from what is written above, there are others in my family who are Aspies and other people in families who are a mix “Aspinauts” as Donna Williams calls them. 

Paul Isaacs 2014


Author: Paul Isaacs

Paul was branded as a “naughty & difficult child” at school. He was classically autistic and non-verbal due to speech articulation difficulties. He had complex sensory issues and appeared both deaf and blind. He gained functional speech around the age of 7 or 8 years old. He went through the mainstream school system with no additional help or recognition of his autism. Consequently, he did not achieve his academic or his social potential and had very low self-esteem. At age 11, Paul was referred to the children’s mental health service with childhood depression where he was regarded as “developmentally underage” and having speech problems. As an adult, Paul had a string of unsuccessful jobs, and his mental health suffered. He developed both Borderline and Schizotypal Personality Disorders in early 2007. He was referred to mental health services and misdiagnosed with “Asperger traits with a complex personality”, which did not satisfy Paul or his family. A local autism organisation put Paul in touch with an experienced psychiatrist, who diagnosed him with Autism at 24 years old. In 2012 Paul was also diagnosed with Scotopic Sensitivity Syndrome by an Irlen Consultant who confirmed that he also had face, object and meaning blindness – conditions which Paul describes eloquently in his speeches and training sessions. He also has dyslexia, dyscalculia and also a dissociative disorder. Having started working as an local autism organisation as a public speaker in 2010, Paul joined their mission to promote autism awareness. His hope is that others will not have to suffer as he did. Now also a core member of our Training Team, Paul continues to enhance true understanding of autism at every opportunity. Paul has released and published 5 books on the subject of autism published by Chipmunka publishing and has contributed to other books too. Having overcome many challenges to achieve the success that he now enjoys, Paul’s message is that Autism is a complex mix of ability and disability. He firmly believes that every Autistic person should have the opportunity to reach their potential and be regarded as a valued member of society. Apart from autism related blogs Paul also write about movies, fashion, art and anything that is of interest. As of August 2015 Paul now works as a freelance speaker, training and consultant in and around the Oxfordshire & Buckinghamshire area. If you are interested please contact him via email at

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