PATTERN, THEME AND FEEL LANGUAGE VS “TYPICAL INTERPRETIVE LANGUAGE
So in other words my secondary communication is verbal “typical communication” which has taken many years to mould and use with meaning, context and structure my “primary communication” is that (two posts below) and my “inner language” has slowly come out in a through that language.
Left Hemisphere of the Brain is what controls semantics (meaning) so Echolalia,Echopraxia, Visual agnosia, Prosopagnosia, Visual-Verbal Agnosia, Auditory agnosia, Verbal Auditory verbal agnosia, Aphasia come from mis-connections and/or genetics/brain injury as Dr Manuel Casanova pointed out in hid review of my Autobiography Living Through The Haze: Life On The Autistic Spectrum By Paul Isaacs . that explains a lot why I live in that world, and I’m thankful that my parents despite all this so me as “Paul” again recognition of my selfhood was very empowering to me.
PATTERN, THEME & FEEL? – YES I STILL “LIVE THERE”
I had speech and language delay and was “seemingly non-verbal” I gained functional speech in between the ages of 7/8 years old, but I still live in a Pattern, Theme and Feel Word where my movements, language and emotions are processed through this function.
I had words WITHIN ME all the time – so my message is don’t assume that being externally non-verbal means no words within and no intelligence you’ll get it wrong.
I would make high-pitched sounds – and still do when go to my “primary communication” such as
- “Eeeeee!!!” is “happy” which includes clapping and jumping
- Low sounds “ugggg!!!” – Is Unhappy
- And/or “clicking” sounds with my tongue – Represents Anxiety
- Head hitting – Processing problems
- Chest thumping – I would like come back to this world please
- Head banging – I can’t cope I need some help
- Sniffing, Licking, Tapping, Mouthing, Rubbing Surroundings – What are you?
- Sculpting Faces – Who are you?
- Tilting Head – I Remember You! And I like your company
Which sound and look like “nonsense” to others, but makes perfect sense to me, movements and theme fit the mood. I thank my parents for seeing me as Paul and that my personhood is important.
AUTIE? OR ASPIE?
I’m very much an Autie in that respect from what is written above, there are others in my family who are Aspies and other people in families who are a mix “Aspinauts” as Donna Williams calls them.
Paul Isaacs Adult with Autism 2014